Friday, September 26, 2008
my thanks

Gotta thank Phil for the drink treat and Flor for the dinner treat yesterday. Ha. So nice of you both to treat me. When I got a job, I will definitely treat you all back! Haha. Been awhile since we met up with Flor. She's still the same, always joking and still as much things to talk with her. Haha. Though we don't meet up much or contact much, but still when we do meet up with her, it's still feels the same as in JC. Haha. Full of fun and laughter.

Still gotta thank Ben and Huili for your encouragements ar. Though mainly it's just the discouraged feeling getting to me. Ha. Yeah, I'm not giving up yet. Not so soon or that easily lah huh. If I get that job, I owe u both a treat too. Haha.

Look like I haven't found a job, and I'm already owing so many people treats. Damn. My 1st few months pay is going to be totally gone! Hahaha.

Thursday, September 25, 2008
happy yet sad

Argh. Complicated feelings! Heard of 2 good news, was happy, but somehow I couldn't help but feel sad for myself. Sigh. Somehow I feel like a loser. Why is it that I never had that luck? Am I truly not trying hard enough? Or just that the time wasn't right for me? No, I'm definitely not thinking of giving up, but somehow I just couldn't help it but feel down. I'm always helping others, giving advice, but why doesn't it works on me? I guess as the saying goes, "Easier said than done." Yeah. How true. Sigh. I'm still praying and hoping that what I really wanted will be given to me. But then, looks like there's not much hope in it. If they were to call, they would have done it some time ago. But still, there's this fear of rejection. I always don't get what I want no matter how hard I try. Sigh.

Please people, pray hard for me! Please let me get what I want!!!

Saturday, September 20, 2008
my new pet. EXPOSED!

By the request of my dear Jessie.. I shall upload a pic of my pet birdie.. hahaha..




Can you see it now my dear? Haha. Ain't it pretty~ Hahaha

Friday, September 19, 2008
ultimate irritation

I endure the ultimate irritation in the last 2hrs!! Now I'm so freaking irritated!! The day ended on such a bad note. WTH!!

First irritation: Got on a super crowded bus on my way home from dinner with min and daph. The moment I got up the bus, my phone rang. Unfamiliar number, so I picked it up. Damnit! The worst decision I made, the PERSISTANT "friend" actually called to ask if I found a job. Seriously, can't you get the hint when I didn't reply your msn messages! Now, he actually called me. I told him the bus is crowded, and I sounded hostile, yet he continued with his small talks. ARGH! The next time I see that number, I'm not going to answer it. zzzzzzz.

Second irritation: The moment I reached home, logged on to msn, another come and ask me if I found a job. zzzzzzz. The 3rd time this week this friend asked. Okay! I understand you are concerned, but kindly please stop asking me and not 3 times a week! I'm stress enough not being able to find a job, so quit asking again if I found it. I will update all of you THE MOMENT I FOUND A JOB OK!! Ya lah. I just mass sms all lah. What the. zzzzzz.

Third irritation: I was merely stating my point in view and out of my curiousity, I got snubbed. Ok. Once again, wrong choice made. I should just stick to just being quiet and shut up whenever the need be. Don't blame me for being cold when I don't talk. I'm just going to mind my own business. I already cut down ALOT of my words yet somehow that little contact can even irritate the hell out of me. ARGHHH!

Feel like complaining to someone, but no one on msn is replying me. Ha. Guess I deserved it. Sigh. Gerger~ When will you be back!! I miss you ley.. the only one who never fail to listen to my woes and complains. COME BACK SOON!!! sigh.

Monday, September 15, 2008
argh

Friday, September 05, 2008
STILL unemployed..

ARGH! This is getting irritating. Everyone just keep asking if I'm employed, or finding some roundabout way to ask if I found a job. The answer is NO!! I'M STILL AN UNEMPLOYED!! SO STOP ASKING!! This is freaking irritating lor.... if it's out of concern, I still don't mind, but for those who asked out of ulterior motives (esp. trying to sell me insurance) please stop asking. Even if I found a job, I won't buy insurance from you!! Neither do I need any financial consulantation for my finances! So stop asking me!! And stop acting like you are all concern about my job, when in fact you are only interested to grab money from me the moment I found a job. If you are concerned, you would have bother keeping in contact and being friends, and not just start contacting me ONLY WHEN YOU NEEDED MY MONEY! FREAKS!!

Seriously, it's pissing me off lor.. and it's totally disgusting, those little acts. Don't think I'm stupid or what. I don't really care if you just started off and needed some clients, I'm not going to be your client! Even if I do need your "talent", I will look for you, so you should just shut up and leave me alone. Stop asking me a few times a week! Irritating... I can't even enjoy some peace with my boring time. Kindly just leave me alone.

If I do find a job, I will definitely post in my blog, so those who are truly concerned about me, will have my blog and read it and will be updated of my jobless status. So, stop irritating me with your roundabout questions if I still slacking away or busy with work. If you know it, you will know it. Stop with the trying to sell me insurance thingy, I don't need it! I have no money to think of getting any financial consultant as well. Please just kindly get out of my life. I don't need friends as such. ZZZZZZZZZZZZ