Monday, December 31, 2007
last post of 2007

This is going to be the last post in 2007, and mainly a recap of what had happened in 2007. A word can be used to summarise everything.. BAD!

Jan - Start of sem 2 of year 3. Back to school after absence from studies for 8months. Was hopeful for this year to get good results and to work very hard for it.

Feb - Just CNY I guess. Cant really remember any major events that happened. Probably just recess week. ha!

Mar - Start of being a geek, rushing for repart for MP3011. Ended up with picking up sh*t and also came to realise that it was never meant to be.

Apr - Exams, exams, exams! But ended up to be the worst period in my life and my biggest regrets. Lost someone ever so precious to me, someone I wished I could have spent more time with, and the chance I lost to care for and look after. Never ever will be given the chance to make that wish come true. The worst 7 days in my life, with so much to handle and no one who is there for me. Lastly, I screwed up my exams and wasted the efforts I put so much into during the sem. There's only so much I can handle. SIGH.

May - Start of intersem. Mainly just school and slacking at home. Some of the OSBs left for states. Lonely.

June - Started the month with my birthday spent with F5. First time ever I spent my birthday with them after so many years. Was really glad to have them with me and that SCREAM'07 concert I went with Janey. Exam for intersem, which once again, I seriously screwed it up, even though I studied hard for it. Probably just wasnt in the mood.

Cant remember where to place this, in June or July. HA! - Release of results for sem 2 of year 3. Indeed I did screw up. Results were really bad, well, comparatively. SIGH. Hopes dashed AGAIN. Went to Genting with my paternal side of the family. First out-of-Singapore trip with them.

July - Hunting for vacation jobs. Ended up with a 2-week temp job at some really ulu place. Last day of the month, left for Macau/Pearl River/Hongkong.

Aug - Enjoyed the shopping spree overseas. Start of 1st sem of Year 4, which I missed the 1st 2days of school since I'm still in HK. Once again, I promised to work hard this sem and indeed I did. Started working on projects and presentations. For the whole sem, 4presentations, 2reports, 3tests and 1assignment (if i remember correctly, ha!). The start of FYP. Lastly, those OSBs came back from states!

Sept - Became no life, either I'm in school for lessons or at home doing presentations/reports/research. And all these make me seriously hating group works. And yes, there's the recess week.

Oct - Totally stressed up and rushing for the damn MP4011 report. All sorts of stupid problems started appearing. Badly beaten.

Nov - Handed in the damn MP4011 report and Exams, exams, exams! Which I do not have time to study for it at all, all thanks to the damn report AGAIN! Had the hardest exams ever in NTU, where all the papers are so different from previous yearS. Sigh.

Dec - Spent almost everyday in school doing FYP. The lab is becoming my 2nd home and seriously, is worse than the sem itself, where I'm in school almost everyday from 9-5pm. No life again. Christmas eve spent with my girls at Sand's house. I guess it's the first Christmas we spent together! Boxing Day, I had my hopes dashed AGAIN and realise I wasnt as great as I thought I am. SIGH. Release of results and surprisingly, I did very well! As compared to all my years in NTU, this was the best results I have gotten. BUT! my wish of getting a min B for all my subjects were STILL not fulfilled. sigh. Looks like I wont be able to achieve that, since I'm only left with 1 more sem to get it. And now come to think of it, maybe i didn't do that well afterall as it seems like everyone I knew did better than me. sigh.

To end up 2007, it wasnt the year for me. All of the wishes and hopes I had, never came true or was never fulfiled and achieved. Also, this was the year I learnt lots of lessons in life and I was utterly disappointed with myself the whole year. It was one depressing year, where too much had happened and yes, I will learn to let go of the past. And that last wish that I had, it will never be fulfilled. I'm letting that go too, probably because I grew tired of holding on to that wish that will never come true.

This post will mark the end of the year 2007 as well as everything that had happened in 2007, including my thoughts as well. And now come 2008, the year where things will change for me, when I graduate (hopefully) and join the working class people. I wasnt looking forward to it, and probably going to miss studying. This time round, maybe I wont make anymore resolutions, neither will I have any more wishes. Just let it be the way it is. Still wondering how should I welcome the New Year. With open arms or closed doors?!? I still have a few hours to ponder over that. HA!

Friday, December 28, 2007
belated merry christmas!

merry chistmas pple!! a little late.. but still can wish... afterall there's 12days of christmas!! ha well celebrated xmas eve with my girls at sand's hse.. thanks so much for hosting this little gathering and also, a chance for us to meet with alll your bfs.. hahaha... well, the food we bought from cold storage kinda ermmm bad... but luckily thanks to sand's mum... she made pizza for us.. hahaha.. gifts exchange and all of us get what we wanted among all those gifts each of us bought!! gotta thanks zw as well.. for that little gift of angels.. =) thats my xmas eve.. as for xmas day itself.. was spent at home... dont wanna go out and squeeze with those crowds.. ha!

nothing much.. results was out on midnight yest.. surprisingly, i did very well as compared to all my years in ntu.. but compared to others, guess im just average.. and also, my wish of getting straight Bs is still not fulfilled.. sigh.. looks like none of the wishes i made came true ar...

Sunday, December 23, 2007
last week of the year...

just one more week before the end of 2007... too much happened in 2007.. and there will be more things going on in this last week for 2007!! shall elaborate more about it when the time comes..

anyway this week is errmm.. a weird week.. met up with min and dap on mon for dinner.. followed by movie with min.. tues met up with a few of the bowlers for dinner... and a freak incident happened before i went to meet them... someone idiotic M ATTEMPTED to rob my 80bucks!! like WTF!! its only 80bucks!! and not to forget in broad daylight at a crowded boon lay mrt station!!! as i was keeping the 80bucks i just drew into my wallet and this idiotic M who WALKED PAST me.. and i mean already walk away le.. suddenly he turned back and grabbed the 80bucks im putting into my wallet... as i was just concentrating on my wallet, i just saw this disgusting hand grabbing my money.. thought was some prank by some friend who walked past and i didnt see him/her.. and when i looked up, i saw this disgusting M staring back at me.. and he kinda pulled my money out of my wallet.. well, i had a firm grip on my money and wallet.. so the idiotic M didnt manage to snatch my money away.. anyway.. it ended this way.. he gave me a DISGUSTING smile, let go of this hand and quickly walked off... like WTF is he trying to do.. and the funny thing is, there are MANY people around me.. and somehow i think none of them saw this... zzzzzzz seriously.. so DUH!! ha.. anyway a lesson learnt... nv draw ur money at crowded places with SOOOO many people walking past.. esp M.. now i seriously become racist liao... well, they forced me to hate them anyway.. ha!

i dont know what to say about this, but i seriously had that guy's face engraved into my mind liao.. he's just lucky cos there's many people around and i didnt have a chance to grab hold of his hand and screamed... otherwise he will probably end up in the police station le.. damn! now im cursing him.. what a freak.. hope there's no other people who's as unlucky as me ar!!

as for the rest of the week, mainly i just go to school.. and slacked!! got so sick of doing fyp and looking through the microscope.. and so what i gotten the results.. i have no idea how to analyse them.. ha! what a loser.. hahaha.. xmas is coming.. and i have yet to get into that xmas mood.... sigh..

Friday, December 14, 2007
fyp & my life

holidays doesnt seem like holidays to me.. and somehow it seems worse than normal school days... im only have 6hrs of sleep everyday... stay in school from around 10am to 5pm every weekdays.. just to do my fyp!! zzzzz and not to forget, im still running out of time!! argh... too many experiments to do.. there's like more than 10experiments to be done!! and each experiment step includes washing sample (approx 20mins), checking of surface (approx 30mins), etching (5-20mins), micro testing (approx 1hr), nano testing (approx 1 full day) and analysis of results (no idea how long i will take).. well maybe some tests can be ongoing.. but!! it still takes up toooo much time!!! to make things worse, i just analyze my results.. and all seems funny.. looks like they are wrong, gotta redo it!! zzzzzzz which means i wasted 1whole week to get wrong results... zzzzzzzz sigh... no one ever say fyp is going to be easy.. and its damn hard to even graduate properly.. ha!

so the once a sem subject registration is today... and once again it goes to show that im the suay one... zzzzzz my gerger managed to register all her subs yest.. stupid school system, no idea why they make it into sooooo many different timeslot for different surnames... zzzzz and also, zw managed to get all the subs as well... so when it's my turn, i didnt get all the subs!!! just really suay.. have to go appeal and email the person in charge all those.. before i manage to get the sub.. just a screwed up system, no matter how hard to try to improve it, it just get worse than before.. ha! well, at least i still get all my subs lah... if not i'm going to complain to the school dean liao.. hahaha... on the bright side, went to get back one of my modules presentation result... did much better than expected and the tutor was saying like whats wrong with my presentation, but end up still give me good results.. hahaha trying to scare me.. thought i would do badly or what.. hahaha..

ok long post... looks like i stayed in lab too long and its damn boring being in the lab.. im bored bored bored!!!! yet i cant do anything about it... yawns.........

Wednesday, December 05, 2007
school again...

and so exams are over, yet im still short of time everyday.. have to go school almost everyday just to do fyp.. just great... dont even get to slack and rest and i'm already rushing my fyp le.. gotta hand in interim report by this fri.. and i only got a few pages done?! damn sian.. not enough time to do it, yet i stil have to go school to do fyp... arggghhh!!! sianz..

at least i enjoyed the concert on sat.. damn nice... his dancing is damn zai.. totally worth the money to go see his concert... though its kinda short.. but he's really good~ hahaha.. met up with my girls on sun... long time no see them le... and even longer when i last see jess~~~ where are you?!?! havent seen you in a long long long time!!! haha meet up soon k!! haha.. lots of catching up done.. as well as gossips... and ya... long time no see the OSBs as well... when are we all going to meet ar?! hahaha

done lots of thinking lately.. and its almost year end.. xmas is coming.. which also means new year is coming... so its time to think of what i had done this year.. time to do some reflections.. sigh... all is just so not good.. i miss my friends!!!