Saturday, September 29, 2007
time flies

there goes 1 week of term break.. and yes i havent really achieved much during this 1 week.. seems like im busy everyday.. its like i have done lots of research on my projects, but thats only research... havent get started on writing my reports.. thats bad.. with only 6weeks of school left, there's still so much to be done.. and our project is only like 20% done?! havent even manage to select the materials, do the calculation, draw our concept, do FEM analysis and to do cost calculations!! so dead.. how to accomplish that within 6weeks.. argh!! hope can faster get over and done with all those presentations and that dumb report.. then i can finally concentrate on my studies and exams!! ohh not to forget, those quizzes that are coming soon... sigh.. this is the worst sem ever!!

-it's like a circle, there's no beginning and there's no end...-

Tuesday, September 25, 2007
no nonsense

its already monday.. 3rd day of my recess week.. and i feel that i had barely achieve anything much.. other than manage to finish the last 4007 presentation.. which i feel im just copying off the net.. and did some group discussion for another core... presentation AGAIN... did some discussion with my gerger for 2 of our reports.. but theres not much accomplished.. cos mainly all have to go back to do it up.. like more powerpoint slides, more calculations and definitely more research.. sigh.. endless amount of research to be done.. and i have to worry about my FYP... since i haven start anything on it.. and im afraid i wont have anything to write for my interim report as i havent really do much.. die ar!!! and yes, i REALLY REALLY wish to study some of my notes... but seems like i wont have the time to do it... too much things ongoing le.. seems like all the final years are going crazy!!

well, finally got my little bit of relaxation.. met up with my girls on sat for dinner and chilling session... havent seen them in quite awhile.. and i realise a few things had happened since the last time we met up... so sorry.. im really very busy, till its even hard for me to organise to meet.. well, at least i get to destress abit.. and also, just came back not long ago from my MJ session with the bowlers... hmmm... realise we didnt meet up as much.. its like everyone is busy with their own things.. or maybe.. its just me.. ha! and yes, long time no touch MJ liao... seems soooo chi dun... and wasnt really alert most of the time.. haha.. and after so long of not touching it.. it STILL seems like luck aint with me...hahaha ok.. another meeting up with bowlers tmr.. hope i will enjoy it.. and yes.. another day of slacking with no work done.. sigh.. guilty ar guilty ar.. ha

Tuesday, September 18, 2007
classic moment

well today marks the day of our "revenge" on the stupid tutor... a classic moment happening in class! ha.. ok this is going to sound very evil.. cos i'm enjoying this happiness at the expense of his LITTLE accident.. here goes..

one of the groups was just starting on their presentation, and the tutor went to sit at the back of the class.. he sat down onto this broken chair, without knowing that it is broken.. well no one knew that the chair was broken.. so he just sat on it.. and suddenly, everyone starting hearing a voice saying.." OHHHHOHHHHHOHHHHH!!!".. so i turned and saw the tutor almost falling off the chair.. the best part wasnt about him falling off the chair, but rather the scene of him half falling off and half balancing in midair, with his arms supporting on the floor, and both his feet dangling off the floor!! almost like he was attempting to keep his feet to the ground, but failed badly, since his legs are kinda short and unable to touch the ground no matter how hard he tries.. looking at this scene, a couple of us have to TRY and contain our laughters...

so.. one of the guy sitting next to him rushed to his rescue.. holding on to the bottom of the chair, keeping him in balance, in case the whole chair broke apart and him having to land on the floor... the guy was actually kinda struggling to keep him in balance.. so another guy went forward to help him.. to try and remove his butt from the chair itself... but he said to the guy balancing him that just let him fall to the ground.. but instead the guy reply him.. stop moving.. he will help him up!! ok that not really funny... but the thing is, theres like at least 10guys in the class.. and only 2 of them went forward to help him.. theres this row of guys sitting in front of us, they just turned their heads to look at whats going on.. they did stand up and ALMOST went forward to help him, but end up they stand up and went back to sit in about 2sec?? from this little incident, can see how much our class dont like him, since nobody actually care if he falls off or what.. they just lent him their EYES TO LOOK.. ha how interesting..

so the whole ordeal ended with the 2 guys helping him and him landing his butt on the floor.. and seriously, its a very funny scene.. normally, i wont laugh at people mishap and actually feel sorry for the person.. but for this one.. i was TRYING VERY HARD to contain my laughters.. im not the worst yet.. zhengwei was laughing soooo hard that i think hes going to run out of breath.. haha ok thats abit 'kua zhang'.. but really.. normally, he wont laugh ba.. probably he will even help the tutor... but guess.. we all dislike him too much liao.. hahaha.. well i can say those groups that presented today is REAL LUCKY... cos the tutor had a shock of his life even before the 1st group presented.. so i guess throughout the lesson hes still abit shaken.. and i think most of them scored well for today's presentation...

well now to the complaining part, since he was soo shaken up, he even gave high score to that group which RE-PRESENT their topic... which we seriously think is unfair.. though they did do a good job this time round, but its still unfair.. cos its the 2nd time they are doing it.. and even the tutor got say, NORMALLY he would have given him 20/40.. but since he SAW the effort they put in.. he gave them 32/40!! thats really unfair lor... our group spent 1 week to pia the presentation out.. and we did put in much more effort than the 1st presentation.. but he graded us cos of the damn sexiness of the content.. but not like the content of other groups are sexy as well... we just happen to get him on a bad day... damn unfair!! sigh.. guess theres really no fairness around le.. sigh.. think my group will have the lowest score this time round..

another irritating thing is that.. theres this IDIOT in one of my lecture go and ask the lecturer if there will be any quiz for this module.. hes really sucha idiot lah!! he just reminded the lecturer about our CA.. when he has TOTALLY forget about it... and not saying im lazy or what.. but the lecturer never say anything about giving us CA since the start of the semester... so we just thought it will be 100% on exams... but all thanks to the idiot, now we got a 15PAGE report to be done in 2+weeks!!! argh!!! and the topic is sooo hard!!! if its just a quiz, still not that bad... but now become a REPORT!!! sigh... really ley.. now i wont forget how that idiot looks like le lor.. call me vengeful.. i indeed am!! know hes a scholar.. very smart.. alot of time to do ALOT of things.. but now he just hai everyone else lor... ACT SMART ley!! if he didnt mention anything to the lecturer, he would have just forget about it.. and maybe just base everything on exams.. but now we have to rush out a 15page report in 2+wks.. which only constitutes 20% of our final grade.. seriously a waste of time... i have enough reports to do to keep me busy lor... now i have to add another 1 in.. JUST GREAT!! sigh..

i realise too much stress has made me to become a bad person.. not like im good in the 1st place.. just make it worse.. ha! till im basically blaming anyone i can find for the stress i'm feeling.. ya i know i know... but really mah.. if is you guys.. you all would probably feel the same way i do lor.. ha.. ok.. this is one long entry.. hope you all are laughing along with me about that CLASSIC MOMENT.. and cursing along with me on that idiot who just manage to ruin my day... ha!

Monday, September 17, 2007
boring break!

rotting during my 2hrs break... my gerger pangseh meh!! hahaha now im rotting in the libraray, using SOMEONE's lappie.. cos hes sleeping away, ignoring me!! ha.. you know who you ar.. tsktsktsk..

woke up on the wrong side of the bed today, and seems like everyone has stepped on my tail.. just feel so irritated with everyone.. sigh.. probably too stress with things that is going on.. especially schoolwork.. with one of my groupmate going to taiwan.. we only got 2persons doing the project le.. sigh.. and 1 week of term break is seriously not enough for me to catch up my work and to relax my mind!! ha.. i want to go out.. enough of rotting at home for 3 whole weeks le.. simply lifeless.. sigh.. once again im complaining.. ha!

Sunday, September 16, 2007
the lifeless me

weekend again... rotted at home again.. 3rd weekend i have been home.. wanted to go out, but cant seem to find people.. and to think i am actually quite free this weekend since i manage to finished my stuffs before the weekend ha.. but then ended im home doing work again.. damn sian...

was planning my term break "timetable" with my gerger... and suddenly all the stress starts to pile up onto me again.. realised i got so much to do within that 1 week break.. with 3presentations on hand, 1 report to be done and lots of catching up work to do... not to forget, start on my fyp lab.. sigh.. i wonder how much i can actually accomplished.. seriously, gonna tear myself up liao.. if only i can duplicate into a few copies of myself.. maybe i can achieve much more... ha!

as i was saying about being how it doesnt pay to be nice in my previous entry... and yeah, after this week, i believe that even more.. i can even help someone i barely know, which i dont know why i did it.. ha! but ended up, i just feel i wasted my time in being nice ha.. dont know how to express what i really feel, since im no good with words.. so shall just leave it as it is... maybe its time i stop being nice.. to stop doing things out of my league.. yup!! just concentrate on those stress inducing work... sigh.. just too much to complain about recently.. ha!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007
September 11, not my day...

feel so irritated suddenly.. well, maybe not exactly suddenly.. probably for the whole of today.. woke up with grey skies.. raining.. and i hate to being lappie to school on rainy day.. but no choice, gotta do presentation.. so have to bring it along.. just thought, maybe it will get better.. but no! presentation was done normally.. but it was not graded fairly?! though, the stupid tutor said.. presentation was good, but the content is NOT SEXY?! how can the content of a presentation topic be sexy?!?!?! and my topic was "Singapore's New Economic Strategies"... how interesting and SEXY can it get?? somehow i managed to take a peek at the score.. 28/40!! cos the content is NOT SEXY! WTF!! really man.. not like our content is totally out of point... and not like our presentation skills sucked... just cos hes subjective and in a damn cranky mood... then can just anyhow grade.. just cos the previous group did some no-brainer presentation which was graded 5/40.. and he has to be cranky?! i know 28/40 is not exactly bad... but its the lowest you get according to the previous presentation.. well, a point to note, the previous group was given another chance to present next week... argh!! if he say properly whats wrong with the presentation, still not so irritated.. but he gave a lame comment like.. THE CONTENT IS NOT SEXY!! how constructive!!!

ohh ya... forget to mention this, hes one hell of a lao tiko..!! not to forget RUDE!! giving you the freaking bored look when others are presenting... seriously, its one lame core module.. that is wasting time.. and ya.. all those presentations add up to 40% of the final grade.. hence this irritation as well.. to think we pia through the weekend to get this done... ok i should be glad we were given bonus marks for being the 1st group to present and also being able to get it done in a week.. but thats not the point.. just 'bu fu qi' why it was graded in terms of SEXINESS of the contents... WTH!

just freaking pissed with everything now.. screwed up my day... and not to forget, it doesnt pay to be nice.. and its tiring faking to smile and be happy everyday.. sigh.. i need to get out of the house, get out of here!! F5!!! i want to meet you girls!!! needa destress...!! OSBs!!! where have all of you gone to ar?? sigh..

i wanna go back to those days.. back in the days in sa.. just hanging out in school, outside of school, in town.. with my friends.. when i still have the things i had... sigh

Friday, September 07, 2007
got me thinking

just heard of a sad news today.. something that reminded me of what had happened a few months ago... reminded me of those feelings that i had felt... something i can relate well, even now... sigh

there's lots of uncertainties in life... of which the most unpredictable thing is life itself... there's many people around who take life for granted... always thinking that there's always time and things can always wait... not till it's too late, then start to regret for not having cherish life itself... and have to live with this regret with the remaining of your life... that's probably the mistake many would make... i commited this very mistake before, i can neither turn back time nor could i re-live this life.. i can only learn from this mistake, learn to live with this regret in my life...

Sunday, September 02, 2007
n.o.n.e.

seems like stress is turning many people's lives upsidedown.. mine included.. ha!

sometimes i wonder is it better just being ignorant or better to have all the knowledge... you need knowledge to survive in this world of survival of the fittest.. so i believe it is better to be knowledgeable.. but for me, i would choose ignorance.. knowing too much just puts you in a greater risk of losing things you had, or thought you have... confusing?? whereas being ignorant, you thought you had nothing, and when you are given something, you will cherish it even more.. confusing?? ha ok, even i am confused by what i wrote.. as the saying goes:" Knowledge is Power, Ignorance is Bliss..."

once again, i'm pondering over nonsensical stuffs.. sigh.. time to get back on track and stop losing myself...