Saturday, October 28, 2006
happy birthday colleen!

faster update tis b4 the clock strike 12!! hahaha HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY COLLEEN gerger!!! haha dun tink she read tis anyway...

just got back from her bdae party.. n its kinda far ar.. at the east.. ha.. well wat can i sae.. rich kid? the food is like sooo damn ex.. so far shes the only whom i knew who spent SO MUCH for her bdae.. hahaha but the effort its worth it.. especially the part where she plays her cello with her fren whos playin the sax.. not bad ar.. hahaha n we r sooo evil lah.. all her uni frens with me dap n shane.. hahaha.. sort of gang up to ostracize her ex.. but really!! dun feel like entertaining him.. with him having the constant black face.. not like i owe him anything.. n i guess those who noe him.. dun really like his attitude either.. so its not only me whos always complaining.. hahaha.. well so evil of us.. hes like totally being ignore... not like i care.. n the bdae ger oso dun care.. lol.. well its enjoyable.. though not really noe her uni frens.. but guess we all can crap alot.. hahaha at least im entertained...

so 6more wks to go.. seriously i cant wait!! but it oso means i need to rush my report.. n i had no idea wat to do.. all dat i wrote so far seems kinda broken down.. no flow or anything.. n the english.. is realy bad.. argh.. wat to do.. my english really sucked.. with my limited vocab.. n my terrible grammar n language.. i forsee the report will be soo badly written.. n i hav to try n make it abt 30pgs long!! my god!!! now only 1/3 done... sigh..

so next wk goin to m'sia for one day.. haha cant wait.. finally im getting out of here... even if its only for a day.. sick of stayin here.. being here.. n always here...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006
there goes my long wkend...

so fast 4days flew by.. been busy everyday.. hahaha which is great.. meet my gerger for movie yest.. thanks for the movie treat.. wen dun even hav to treat me.. so paisae.. caught my 1st R21 show on the big screen.. erm.. its lesbian show.. n thats abt it.. no storyline.. no plot.. just lesbians? ha.. wanted to watch deathnote.. but dat ger ar.. scared is horror movie.. cos of the word DEATH.. so din catch it.. haha.. supper late in the nite.. thanks liang for the transport to n fro.. haha went to some hongkong cafe in kallang/geylang/east coast.. my sense of direction in the east is total zero.. hahaha well its kinda nice.. but ex lah.. hahaha.. sorry ar.. wanted to treat u all.. but i only went with limited money.. so only paid abit.. lol

went to vivocity today.. the crowd is like sooo crazy... its filled with pple.. everywhere, every shops.. full of pple.. cant even shop properly.. haha drag my mum to watch deathnote with me.. dun hav to pay for tix.. aint my mum nice to accompany me to watch movie... somemore is jap movie.. when she dun really like.. hahaha.. deathnote is nice.. cant wait for the sequal to be out.. ohh ya.. saw tay pinghui at the cathay!!haha.. nth to be excited abt.. just dat find him kinda old wen c the real person.. n his dressing is ERM... ha

tml back to work.. kinda sianz... cos this 4days feels like my sch break ley.. zzzzzzz cant wait for the 7wks to be over... lalala

Monday, October 23, 2006
long long wkend...

so today i sunday le!! kinda fast.. my 4days break is down to 2days.. so fast!! took leave tml so i can hav long long wkend.. hahaha went out wif jess yest.. long time no go shopping with her le.. great company.. haha always got so much knowledge to pass to me.. im glad shes studying radiography.. haha.. hang out at esplanade after dinner.. saw some deepavali celebration.. kinda interesting.. especially the part where all the audience starting dancing tgt.. n more den half of them are chinese!! hahaha.. after dat they stil got some kind of clubbing scene.. kinda weird to c pple clubbing out in the open.. wif no aircon.. n tons of uncles, aunties, kids, freaks.. or watever staring at u.. n under the bright lights.. ha

spent today rotting at home.. wanted to do my blog.. decided finally its time to change my blog.. after sooooo long.. but im just lazy.. will take quite some time for me to master photoshop.. b4 i can come out wif somethings nice.. so u guys can just wait lah.. mahjong-ed.. well i can say my luck is not exactly back.. but its on its way.. hahaha.. just a way to pass time.. n to help to take ur mind off things eh.. ha

ohh ya.. im will be goin on a company trip to kukup in m'sia!! haha well its only a 1 day event.. dats y im goin oso.. since no need to pay.. just go there n c c lor.. but i oso not say very close with those project ppl.. more close to those from other section.. so lets hope it will be fun.. n dat i wun feel awkward.. hahaha n yesh counting down.. just 7more weeks!!! yeah yeah!!!

i don't wanna say, not cos i can't.. cos i want to be fine by myself...
there's only this much i can promise myself...

Saturday, October 21, 2006
tire myself to death..

wat am i doin up so early?? n bloggin at almost daybreak.. i must be crazy.. ha.. yesh im STILL awake.. haven slp yet.. up for abt 24hrs le.. n i dunno... im supposed to feel tired.. but im not... hopin that i cant make myself sooo tired dati dun need to tink.. n just lie on bed to hav a gd rest.. but seems like its not working... even after a round of wine drinking.. n i sucked at drinking any type of alcoholic drinks.. just abit n i will go alll red.. well i wasnt wasted... maybe i shd just go get drunk lah.. hahaha wonder wat it feels like to be drunk.. since im always sooo in control of myself.. mayb its time to let go eh.. mahjonged one round at jasc hse with 6person fighting for 4seats... ha.. i dunno is cos my luck is back.. or just that the seat is damn lucky.. n just play one round of the feng.. n managed to almost win back wat i lost over the wks of losing mahjong.. ha.. at least its satisfying.. at least sth dat isnt bad finally happens.. n so bu hao yi shi to win u guys money..

lets hope all things turn for the better as from now on.. n dat all my probs can b resolved.. i hate to worry so much.. cos im a plan ahead person.. i dun like any crop up.. mayb dats y i became like this.. stop being so stubborn.. mayb it will b even better.. yeah.. lets just pray for the best...

it just won't subside, all along it was there...

Thursday, October 19, 2006
how ar how...

sigh.. to tink all will be fine.. but probs just cant seem to leave me alone!!! argh... so from now on.. more or less its official.. my mum n dad will b jobless once 2007 is here.. sigh.. whole company got "sacked" cos of the damn fire.. since its too ex to rebuild the factory.. so the boss decided to sell the company n move to KL.. so all those working in singapore will be sacked!!! how ar!!! both my parents not young le ley.. dun say my dad.. its probably too hard for him to find new job.. for my mum too!! sigh... to tink that its was great they both r working.. n now they both will b jobless... ARRR!!!! somemore me n my bro stil studying... how to support?!?! haiz.. hen fan ar.. hen fan... feel so much like crying.. sigh... who is there to help?? just pray dat my mum will be able to find a job.. otherwise everything will be lost le.. sigh...

Life's never fair, and when it happens,
you asked GOD, "Why it has to be me?"
and yes, I really want to ask HIM why...

Tuesday, October 17, 2006
its hard... sigh

haze ar haze.. its getting worse.. my god.. wats wrong with the indonesian government ar.. zzzz the haze is so bad dat wen i look out of my office.. i only c the haze.. almost like in genting.. living in the clouds of haze.. n my throat is like constantly dry no matter how much water im drinking.. argh.. n heard dat its goin to last til end of mth!!! sigh...

the lousy weather just adds to my lousy mood ar.. but den i found a wonderful way to cure lousy mood.. well at least temperory.. hahaha dat is goin to go KTV!!!!! wif my beloved gals!! or rather
GAL.. since one decided to join later.. lots of new songs.. n get to learn them.. ha.. sang for 3hrs only.. its nv enuff ley.. i stil wan go!! but den pple r like goin to have exams liao.. sigh.. gossips just makes ur mood even better.. especially after ktv.. hahaha lots of crap theories.. lame senarios.. make me laugh like mad.. haha wonder how this crazy bunch of gals always have such lame senarios... been awhile since we all get tgt n gossip!! haha.. though its only for awhile.. but it does wonders...

haven been in the best of moods recently.. n i came to understand some things afterall.. stuffs i tot i knew.. but i guess u never knew wat is it until u get through it..

-just another selfish bitch-

Saturday, October 14, 2006
sat ar sat.. sigh

so its sat.. free wkend.. haha ended trying the life of being a taitai.. which is goin shopping alone! zzzzzzzz how fun is dat.. was SUPPOSED to meet my gerger to go out.. n we planned it a wk ago.. but ended up she cant make it.. yet i stil have to meet her for like 5mins to pass her somethings.. n of cos to get back my money.. since im soo broke.. ha.. after dat go shop ard in town.. soo many pple.. looking for present as well.. IF got money.. sure buy alot of things liao.. just like a taitai ar.. go shop alone.. buy lots of things.. ha who needs company??

ohh n met tis weird auntie in guess.. tink she from indonesian.. n some rich taitai or wat lah.. so i was looking ard in guess.. den suddenly she walked towards me.. n starting tugging at mi bag!!! n speaking in malay.. which i am like HUH??? n shes toking soo loudly in malay.. n make it look as if i stole her bag??? since i had no idea wat the hell she was talking.. n she cldnt stop tugging at my bag... zzzzz FINALLY her fren came over.. n tell me dat shes asking me where i got my bag... den i ohhh.. so duh!!! wen she ask in malay the 1st time.. i replied.. HUH??*confused look* so she repeated.. IN MALAY.. den i HUH again.. after HUH-ing a few times.. den her fren spoke.... zzzzzz sorry ar.. i dun look the LEAST bit malay k.. on the contray.. i look more like a cheena ger can!!! zzzzzz n for god sake.. i dun understand malay.. ha.. muz b a farnie sight for the ppl working in guess.. haha kinda scary.. cos at least i tot she wan steal my bag.. cos she was holding on the handle part of the bag.. n pulling it towards her.. n in broad daylight!! hahaha ok farnie experience lah..

Thursday, October 12, 2006
sorry...

wah.. finally can get into blogger le.. wanted to update earlier.. but cant load the page.. ha.. well.. tink i jus pisses someone off.. oops.. din mean it.. sorry if u r irritated.. dat is if u c this blog lah.. just read sth dat actually brings a smile to my face.. ha.. how long since i had any emotions of this kind... and so tml is black friday.. i wonder if any bad luck mite befall me.. haha well mayb just the opposite will happen.. i mite be soo damn lucky.. since normally im suay.. so unlucky days i will lucky?? haha k.. im tinking too much.. haha

haven been slping well lately.. a few slpless nites.. n its making me look so haggard.. yesh.. im like an OLD lady lor.. dark circles.. pimples popping out.. tired eyes... lousy skin condition.. seriously.. its not gd to get old.. n im just 21!!! my god my god!!! sigh.. guess ample slp is soo impt.. but cant slp means cant slp.. wat to do.. someone kind enuff to knock me out every nite at 11pm?? adding on to dat.. i had a a blue black the size of a 10cents coin INSIDE my mouth.. yesh blue black in the mouth.. wat a weird place rite.. zzzz i can even feel the pain just by moving my mouth.. how i got it?? all thanks to my carelessness/clumsiness/mindlessness.. watever it is.. its jus dumb as to how i got dat.. zzzzzz

life is full of lies, especially if you are a liar..
so my life is only make up of lies..
since all along I have been lying...
I will be fine on my own.. all along I had been fine..
yesh.. Just Fine..

Tuesday, October 10, 2006
face it...

Sunday, October 08, 2006
bored..

another wkend gone.. so i rotted at home again.. wanted to go out.. no company.. n oso the bad haze.. so shd jus slack at home.. mum off to hk liao.. which means im goin to be tooo lonely.. ha.. no1 to tok to me at home for 4days.. zzzz n mi bro.. hes nv home.. n wen hes home.. hes slping or just lock himself in the room... my dad.. he probably not home most of the time.. so its just me n my hse.. zzzzzzz

mahjong-ed last nite.. n looks like my bad luck stil prevails after missing out for mahjong session for quite long.. haha well mayb i shd just quit mahjong... but den.. like dat i wun hav anymore entertainment!! sigh.. wen will my luck be turning ard.. its just so not fun wen u keep losing.. not of the money.. but cos u cant win the game!!! sigh... another 9more wks til end of IA.. im stil counting down.. ha.. which oso means i need to start on my report soon.. argh.. dun even noe wat the hell im goin to write in there.. argh..

Saturday, October 07, 2006
sooo hazy...

ohh man the haze is sooo bad... bad til i smell the burnt smell throughout the whole day.. even wen im in the office... til i can even taste the smoke in my mouth.. n wats more.. its coming into my hse!!! its getting to me.. irritating my throat n eyes.. making me itch again.. wen im finally recovering... damn... hope i dun itch anymore...

so i rested n slpt the whole of 2days away.. n back to work n its thurs already!! ha.. so now its fri.. kinda fast wk.. especially u spent it slping away... looks like the rash is almost gone.. but it gave me some presents afterall... zzzzzz guess it will take quite some time for the marks to be gone... even wen i din scratch it!! sigh... so meet wif dap n min... haha lots of crapping again.. long time no c them.. n yesh.. including dap.. hahaha wats surprise.. wen i used to c her almost everyday... kinda sianz.. cos tml gotta work.. din feel like goin to work... all thanks to the haze... zzzzz

ohh ya.. anyone saw the news today?? got one big big fire.. burnt down a factory?? almost the size of 2basketball courts?? n one of the biggest fire in singapore tis yr???? well.. thats the company my parents are working at!!! sounds scary wen my mum called me in the noon.. at least noone was hurt... glad my dad din try n act macho... cos he actually wanted to got fight the fire.. but tooo big.. so he ran off.. otherwise dunno wat will happen... heard from my mum she can actually c bottles/containers shooting out of the office.. n can hear the sound of the building "vibrating"... its almost like drama wen i heard it.. n the funny thing is the firemen actually "scolded" my mum n her colleagues... telling them to run wen theres a fire.. stil take wat things ar... haha cos they wanted to go back n get their stuffs... got some petty cash inside.. so need to get it out.. well finally they stil went back in to get it lah.. but after they extinguish the fire.. guess my parents wun hav to work for a few days.. the company is half burnt.. the most impt part was burnt down.. no factory... no production... no work.. for more of it... go read the papers...

Tuesday, October 03, 2006
rashes!!! save me!!!

wah!! to tink i was saying i dun get sick easily.. n dat i wun get to use my 4days of MC given to me by the company... but i wasnt sick.. yet im on mc.. but den... one day MC not enuff... doc shd hav given me more... i got like rashes all over my body.. on my thighs, shoulders, back and stomach... like eeeuuuwwww... worst rash i ever gotten.. im more prone to rashes.. sigh.. sensitive skin... now im like swollen with rashes.. hahaha.. well not dat swollen.. hope it doesnt leave any scars.. otherwise it will b damn ugly liao!! =( it was sooo itchy dat i cldnt slp last nite.. n its soooo hard to control myself from scratching it.. especially wen u r slping.. zzzzzzzz sigh.. wonder wat caused it?? doc was saying must be the food i ate.. but den i ate seafood on sun.. n only got the rashes last nite?? isnt dat abit of retard reaction?? n doc was asking wat i ate last nite.. n its only duck noodles lor... so dunno wats the cause either.. den she said cld b stress as well.. hmmmm work isnt the least bit stressing.. jus kinda boring ley.. well got my one day mc.. needa eat med to stop the damn itching.. n can finally slp well.. sooo tired....

Monday, October 02, 2006
fruitful wkend...!!

ohh.. wkend gone by again.. which means in another 6hrs or so i need to go work like again.. goin to boring wk.. sigh... well at least i had a fruitful wkend... hahaha shopping spree yest.. bought lots of things.. which includes bag, tees, shoes, facial stuffs etc... n best of it is i dun hav to pay a single cent.. weeee~ isnt it nice to go shopping wif my mum.. hahaha.. as for today.. its feast day!! had jap buffet for brunch.. sort of to giv my bro a treat for his bdae.. sooooo filling... n a 8course dinner at night.. at shangri-la hotel.. n stil very fulll... just keep having all the nice food.. ha.. n the dinner ended kinda late.. n jus got home.. so was late to say this.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOST WONDERFUL BRO!!!! erm.. not like he will c this n of cos hes the most wonderful.. cos i only got one bro.. hahaha.. n so dead.. din write my logbook today.. which means im goin to giv to my supervisor late!! n 1st time dat i actually pass it to him late... well.. but i dun tink he will mind.. since he usually keep with him a few days b4 he reads it.. tooo busy to actually care abt my logbook.. hahaha n yesh!!! its finally more den half of my IA gone!!!! just 10 more dreadful wk.. n im done!! hahaha..

well i guess.. a happy mind works wonder.. everything jus seems pleasing to u.. hahaha