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her self


June/Juney
1st June 1985
Graduate/Unemployed
Simple yet complicated/nice yet evil/ smart yet stupid/bad-tempered yet tolerant/cynical yet hopeful

A simple girl who yearns for a simple life, with simple wants and simple needs.

"I'm just an actor in life,
hiding behind all my roles"



her loves


- Things she loves in life -
her family/nicky/dogs/theOSBs/F5/ktv/ games/tv/novels/anime/TWdramas

- Things she couldnt live without -
air/water/food/hp/laptop/ipod/ family/friends/music


her notes





her reads


= aaron =
= bee =
= bene =
= ben =
= daph =
= fred =
= jack =
= jane =
= jasc =
= jess =
= liang =
= min =
= phil =
= shane =
= shu =
= vin =
= yun =

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Monday, July 31, 2006
ohh wkends flies by...

the wk flies by again... work is gettin mundane... especially the part on tryin to stay awake.. wen my eyes is already 90% closed... ha.. hope i can learn new things... otherwise i had no idea how to write my logbook.. sianz... probs r surfacing again... sigh... y ar y.... only create probs for me de.... den make things sooo ma fan... every yr this will happen... argh... i shd jus drop out of sch lah.. not meant to b... zzzzzzz

so wkend is only 1.5days last wk... n it jus passes by in a blink of an eye... ktv session wif F5(-1)... but not shiok enuff... i din sing enuff!!!! how sad... n seems like i can only go to ktv on wkends le... which is like soooooo ex!!! hai.. hang ard after ktv session.. look at allll the nice scenery fotos taken in europe... its sooooo nice... i oso wan go europe!!! who wan to sponser me? haha mayb i shd find a rich bf... any takers?? wahahaha... ok work makes me go mad... sun was always spent rotting at home.. to catch up n slp n rest n tv n slacking n rotting... hahaha ohh was hooked on playin xbox... hahaha well only for tis wk lah.. after tis wk no more xbox... how sad.. sch starting next wk... how i envy those goin to sch.. i oso wan!!! tis sem i wun b in sch le... sad... i actually miss schooollll~~

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11:28 PM


Tuesday, July 25, 2006
ohh i slpt wif a cockroach... eeeekssss

as i was complaining how routine my working days r... so today i work up wif a different morning... n now i wun b complaining mi days r routine.. cos i rather it be routined... contradicting rite.. hahaha woke up tis morning wif a cockroach "sleeping" on my comb.. i was like huh?? wen i 1st saw it.. cldnt put my mind to it as wth is dat... after staring at it for 10sec... i realise dat is a cockroach... haha damn retard... den i jus stand there staring at it.. i oso dunno y... dunno how long finally pass.. i decided i shd change n go to work... hahaha but i continue to keep my eyes on it lah... wanted to TRY killing it... but i cldnt do it... y??? cos its resting on my laptop!!! n i canot jus smap it wif the papers!! zzzzzz 1st time i was actually "brave" enuff to wan kill it.. but end up i din... so i waited for it to move away... den i faster... remove all the things on my table to my bed... n let it roam ard my table... FINALLY my saviour wake up.. hahaha well dats my dad lah.. faster call him to come kill it.. "interesting" morning i had... make me feel so weird the whole day... cos i wake up wif a cockroach in my room.. after much tinking.. i realise i MITE hav actually slpt throughout the nite wif it crawling over my bed!!!! eeeeekssss....

so i rather hav a boring start for the day.. den having my "bestest" fren in my room.. sometimes i wonder how come cockroach jus love my room.. its like they got radar sense or wat... dat they knew the owner of tis room is damn scared of them... so the LOVED hanging out in my room... zzzzzzz

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8:58 PM


Sunday, July 23, 2006
ohhh wkend over...

so fast wkend is goin to b over le... how sad... next wk will hav to work on sat... sianz.... so probably i will b dreading tis wk... sigh.. well finally get to meet my frens yest... met wif jess n sandz in the noon... hang ard at far east.. nothing much to shop.. though got some things i wanna buy.. but kinda no mood to go n find lah.. hahaha... sorry dat i hav to leave early... n dat u gers got nth to do.. n head home as well.. 2nd session wif another group of frens... so long no meet the bowlers.. haha though its abt 2wks only lah.. but work makes like boring.. u need ur frens lah.. mj at dap hse... with 7person playing mj... hahaha abit tooo many pple to play mj.. looks like most of us r free on sat nite.. or rather.. we make time to meet?? hahaha.. thanks aa for the ride home ar... stil need to return u comics.. its collecting dust at mi hse liao... ha...

another wk of work... sianz.. n dats only the 3rd wk...

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8:42 PM


Saturday, July 22, 2006
20more wks to go...

haven update for a wk le... cos nth much to update.. other den waking up.. go work.. waking for 530 to come... den go home.. watch tv... bathe.. n slp... basically dats my routine for the last wk... n probably for the next 20wks to come.. dats how boring working life is... n harn.. ur yahoo group msg say.. stop working pple rite... I WAN!!! but i cant... i oso dun wan to work... day in day out do the same thing at work.. lookin at those drawing... give me headaches... n by the end of the day.. i feel like im goin blind.. cos concentrate too much on looking at those drawings... zzzzzz well at least tis wkend i dun hav to go work.. dats the only im looking forward to.. n yeah.. stil sooo no life.. haven get to c my frens for 2wks?!?! how sad... i oso wan mahjong.. go sentosa... watch movie... do dinner... n hang ard n do nth.. but seems like... i canot split into 2persons ar... sigh... n since i got nth much to do.. im like addicted to taiwan drama series... got so many i wanna watch.. n recently i found one gd source for watching lots of show.. n it runs continously... how i wish im having hols....

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2:08 AM


Friday, July 14, 2006
where is my TGIF??

wat the hell happen to T.G.I.F.??? its like im not even lookin forward wen fri is here... not even the least bit excited or happy.. cos sat i stil need to wake up early n go work... zzzzzzz so every alternate fri... u will c a super bored june.. sigh...

i miss my friends... miss hanging out with u guys!!!! soooooo sad.....

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9:24 PM


Tuesday, July 11, 2006
suay day...

wanted to blog abt my 1st day of IA yest... but was too tired to even write abt it... been tryin hard to stay awake at office the whole day... especially wen u got nth to do.. n havin to read technical specifications which all looks greek to me... keep dozing off at work.. hahaha well at least the ppl there r nice n friendly... dress code oso kinda slack.. so i dun hav to worry.. can actually wear jeans everyday if i wan... only dat i cant wear slippers lah... haha but gd enuff... ohh n oso not bad.. we r given annual leave as well.. 4days of annual leave til my end of IA... not bad... hahaha well for now its kinda slack... but i foresee i will b very busy at work real soon.. lookin at the stuffs dat i hav to learn.. its sooo hard... related to thermo.. n graphics... both r my worst subs... hav to look at drawings n try to interpret... haha so dead... well at least im learning something new.. kinda sad.. cos tis sat i hav to work.. only 2nd day of work.. n im actually looking forward to sch start... which is not like for another half yrs... zzzzzz

today is a damn suay day... started the day wif a sprained ankle.. hav to endure the stupid pain for the whole day... til now the ankle dunno swollen like wat.. wen at 1st it wasnt dat bad... zzzzz den scalded my fingers... YET AGAIN... cant believe im actually dat clumsy... ha looks wat lack of slp had done to me... had no idea wat i do the whole day.. other den my mind full of sleep sleep sleep n more sleep.... bad luck for 2days le.. i hope tml will b better day.... yawnz.... i need sleep...

ohh not to forget... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!!

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8:55 PM


Sunday, July 09, 2006
countdown to IA... sigh

just got back home... n tis post is long past due... haha.. n i cant really remember the exact contents of wat i wanted to write... been wanting to update over the past few days.. but.. kinda lazy ar.. haha busy playin maple.. til i dun wan to update.. n now i forget the purpose of tis entry.. hahaha

fri.. met up wif the J's.. which is jane n jess.. hahaha had our bitchin time.. n of cos shoppin for all of us... today... meet dap... supposedly to shop.. but ended up i only shop for 40mins?? spent more time sitting down n chattin... yesh.. we had lots of crap to tok til we can tok for 4hrs?!?! especially after ben n harn joined us.. hahaha.. well head over to dap's hse for mahjong.. n so nice of harn to make up the last KA for the mahjong since we cant find the last person.. n shes so tired after working for a full day... n we had a long round of mahjong.. 3.5hr for 1 freaking rd!! hahaha n yeah thanks to ben again for fetchin us home..

so sianz... in abt 30hrs... i will b starting my IA... dats like sooooo sick... sigh.... im goin to miss my freedom for the next 22wks...

it hurts to c pple ard me feeling sad... it makes me wanna cry with u.. so gals.. pls do feel better... =)

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3:37 AM


Monday, July 03, 2006
how to feel better??

today mon le... so fast.. wkend seems to fly past... sat went town.. hmm jus to relax n all.. n of cos to tok.. lots of things to talk abt.. well hope all is fine.. though its goin to b hard.. but its not abt the time... as long as its better.. its gd enuff...

sun went to work at dog show.. saw lots of dogs.. but wasnt really happy wen i saw those dogs.. cos i cant have them!!! all oso not mine.. sigh.. went to meet the bowlers after dat.. they all went to sentosa.. cld hav went with them if mi mum din force mi to go work at dog show lah.. haha dinner-ed.. went dap hse to play cards.. supper-ed.. den go home le.. time jus past so fast.. ha.. ohh ya... thanks to ben ar... thanks so much for givin me blue black on my arms ar... thanks to ur poking finger... zzzzz now got faint traces of blue black.. ha.. so pple!!! BEWARE OF BEN'S POKING FINGER!!! IT GIVES U BLUE BLACK!!! wahahaha

ohh i just did something stupid.. ha.. not goin to say wat.. but yeah.. somehow it felt stupid.. n i wonder y...

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9:25 PM


Saturday, July 01, 2006
its gone...

today marks the start of a new mth.. no more june.... which oso means.. i only left wif one more wk to enjoy b4 i hav to do all the crap of IA... sigh... end of june means end of lots of things too.. ha.. well tis mth seems to b quite a depressing mth.. i heard of lots of things dat i nv wan to noe... things i nv wan to get involve... things i din wan to see... n dat most of the pple ard r feeling blue... n theres absolutely nth i can do abt it... i dun wish to c them sad.. yet i cant help them to b happier.. theres a limit to how much one can do... but i really dun wish dats my limit... sigh.. hate to c pple sad... well no more depressing tots... i only got 1 more wk to enjoy...

ohhh i guess wat i did the whole of this wk... i stayed home all day from mon-fri.. well other den dat short 2-3hrs trip to jp for lunch... dats seriously how sad things can get... its like everyone is busy wif their own life.. n here i am.. rotting my ass off... haha.. wen i said i wan to enjoy.. but den again... no money... enjoy wat?!?! other den stay home n stare at th 4walls.... hahaha crap.. on the brighter side... at least i will out today n tml... hahaha

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