Friday, November 18, 2005
fucked up 2004!!!

ARRRRRRR!!! I WANNA SCREAM!!!! argh... damn frustrated.. do paper do til i wan to fan the table le.. end up banging all mi pens on the table.. n got the urge to tear off the whole paper n go.. dats how frustrated i am doin mi paper jus now... seriously is a FUCKED UP paper... u got the brains n damn gd memory... u can get distinction.. but thnx.. i got none.. so im so goin to fail.. super many things to memorise.. n i cant even get any facts in.. only those formulas.. but ended up... whole paper only 20marks or so on calculation!! so wat if giv mi all calculation.. i oso wun b able to do it.. those formulas i memorise.. ended up go in mind blank.. well done june... argh..is damn crap lah.. most r theory.. no application at all.. u can memorise the whole freaking bk.. den WELL DONE!! shit ley.. wonder y they so sucky.. tis paper is even worse den the 1st paper.. for the whole paper.. tink i only manage to do 3-4parts of it.. n YESH IS PARTS!! NOT QNS!!! n each damn qn got 3-4parts.. so total abt 16parts.. i only can do 3-4parts... like dat nvm.. those i did the parts... got subparts! n guess wat.. not all i can do.. sucked.. n to tink now uni le.. they wun b so dumb to test on definition.. but tis is so damn wrong lah.. they STILL love to giv definition qn.. yesh.. fantastic.. i din memorise ANY definition.. so free marks i oso dun wan.. even simple qn like list n label wateva shown.. i cant do it... dats how SMART i am... argh!! im so SMART i wonder y i even bother goin to uni.. is freakin waste of time.. n since im not goin to do well.. so wats the pt rite... i seriously sucked... no mood to pia for mi last core paper.. tink i wun pass anyway.. n 2 of mi 4AUS subs gone case le... so most probably i wun last til yr2.. by den im already out of sch... too stupid to continue.. so SCREWED IT!!


need to relax mi mind.. so went to do tis quiz in AA's blog.. realise its rather true.. well for some parts is like right on spot.. or many some things dat i nv knew was actually in mi.. well mayb... shall jus post it here..

Existing Situation
Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.

Stress Sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

Restrained Characteristics
Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner and seeking a rather unrealistic perfection in her sex life.
Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants.

Desired Objective
Intense, vital, and animated, taking a delight in action. Activity is directed towards success or conquest and there is a desire to live life to the fullest

Actual Problem
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.