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her self


June/Juney
1st June 1985
Graduate/Unemployed
Simple yet complicated/nice yet evil/ smart yet stupid/bad-tempered yet tolerant/cynical yet hopeful

A simple girl who yearns for a simple life, with simple wants and simple needs.

"I'm just an actor in life,
hiding behind all my roles"



her loves


- Things she loves in life -
her family/nicky/dogs/theOSBs/F5/ktv/ games/tv/novels/anime/TWdramas

- Things she couldnt live without -
air/water/food/hp/laptop/ipod/ family/friends/music


her notes





her reads


= aaron =
= bee =
= bene =
= ben =
= daph =
= fred =
= jack =
= jane =
= jasc =
= jess =
= liang =
= min =
= phil =
= shane =
= shu =
= vin =
= yun =

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Thursday, September 29, 2005
random quizzes...

bored.. so did a few quizzes.. find it so like me.. haha

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.
How Do You Live Your Life?


the 1st sentence is especially true.. n dats my biggest flaw... hai..

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
How Are You In Love?


tis is an old quiz done ages ago.. yet i stil find it interesting.. hmmm..

shy
Your guy is the shy type. He's really nice and
sweet. He also can be quiet. If you get to
know him he can be the cutest guy in your eyes!
He'll always give you the little treats every
day. Wow, your one lucky girl.


What's your perfect guy?
brought to you by Quizilla

haha.. i wonder if this is really true.. hmmm?

In a Corner
You are a demonic dreamer. Your depressed, and you
dream about escaping this painful world and
just being by yourself forever, away from all
of the hurt. That's so sad...want a cookie?


What Kind of Dreamer are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

yeah.. i need an escape route out of my life!! hahaha

left brain
You're left brain oriented! Some characteristics
that might describe you are: logical,
sequential, rational, analytical, objective,
and you look at parts and pay attention to
detail rather than the thing as a whole.
Memorizing numbers and the specifics is not so
difficult for you. When remembering someone,
you think of their name and traits, rather than
their physical appearance. You work better with
routine and learn best with oral or verbal
lessons. You prefer the male family members
over the female (may not pertain to all). You
don't like to feel smothered and often blame
yourself for others discomforts. Tip: relax,
learn to trust others and don't dwell on
mishaps or successes of the past.

Are You More Left or Right Brain Oriented?
brought to you by Quizilla

quite true.. but i am closer to my mummy than my bro n father.. haha
ok lah.. enough of quizzes.. if not later u all read til bored...



-I found myself crying away in my sleep...
I dont know why I had cried...
Maybe subconsiously all still matters...
But now is time to totally let go...
I dont wish to wake up crying anymore-
...

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6:42 PM


Monday, September 26, 2005
im sad..

short day today... so boring... supposed to b studyin de lah.. but somehow i reach hm i will jus camp in front of the comp.. rottin away n not doin anithin... abit duh... hai.. i feel sad.. dunno y oso.. jus sad.. well mayb i do noe y.. jus hopin dat it will jus pass by ba.. tryin to b happy.. but circumstances dun seem to allow it.. crap.. somehow i wished i was brainwashed.. yeah... if only...

-if only the smile on my face was real...-

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2:44 PM


Sunday, September 25, 2005
new skin...

yeah.. finally changed mi blog skin... finally found sth nicer... though i dun really like those hav to click de... cos ma fan.. but tis is nice.. or so i tink lah.. haha.. gettin bored wif the old skin.. yup.. too bored at hm.. so come change blog skin.. bo liao lor.. haha hmm.. went out wif the gers yest.. n once again.. 5 short of 1.. yesh.. HUILI is ALWAYS NOT FREE!!! haha.. n if u r readin tis.. u beta make it the next time.. haha went city to walk ard.. n once again im early.. im always the early 1.. den they all late.. AS USUAL.. so rot awhile at raffles city.. had dinner at coffee club.. n the coffee club at raffles city is not up to standard! haha taka de stil beta.. after den we rush to bugis... walk ard parco awhile.. n get mi 3.5mths due present.. haha.. yeah.. the most delayed present i recieve.. n i oso forget abt it le... but well i stil got it rite.. so thnx gers for the gift.. n im abit ma fan aint i? haha.. walk at bugis street..n went hm after dat.. dun feel like goin hm.. but seems like i dun hav any other place to b.. so go hm le lor... feel guilty... shd b hm doin tut.. but im out... but really.. i dun seem to care.. hahaha

i blogged @
8:53 PM


Friday, September 23, 2005
boringzzzz

wanted to post an entry a few days ago.. but realise dat i got nth to blog abt.. sch is borin as usual.. everythin is mundane.. so no post.. til now.. haha 1wk is over in a blink of an eye.. yes... time passes by fast.. nth much.. yest went to meet harn vin n aaron for bowling.. though i wasnt bowling.. it was an impromtu thing for mi to join them de.. haha din feel like rottin at hm so joined them.. c them bowl.. not bad.. bring back memories in bowlin... feel like bowling now.. but on a budget.. overspent tis mth le.. due to all the birthdays n present bought.. yeah.. overbudget =( gettin poorer.. hahaha...

ohh notice sth... dat ntu students r rich!!! haha was waitin for 179 to come jus now.. waited for the bus for ard 5-10mins.. n i saw abt 7-8 students alighting from cabs... haha n its only at the bus stop lor.. n saw many cabs wif students in it passing by.. wah... looks like the taxi uncles are earning quite abit form uni students eh.. haha.. crap.. i needa slp... zzzz

i blogged @
12:59 PM


Sunday, September 18, 2005
burnt?? under the shade?

tml sch le!! sadzzz... haha but at least i enjoyed one day of the whole wk!! yeah went to sentosa yest wif harn, aaron n jack.. jus 4 of us.. enuff to play bridge.. haha well i jus went there to make the no.. n slack.. n long time since i last went sentosa too.. glad dat i went hahaha.. n guess wat.. im burnt?? n most of the time im in shade!! haha.. but abit burnt.. but stil pain... booo.. hope i dun peel lah.. lookin at the extend of those bowlers' last 'peeling' session.. i beta dun get it.. haha... took some lame fotos too..left sentosa at ard 330pm.. harn drove us to imm to eat BK.. n guess hus idea was dat! haha.. after which mi n harn went to aaron hse he help him hav a mini makeover? cos we agreed dat he has to change his dressin!! haha.. not bad i hav to sae.. mostly harn do the job lah. i jus agree or disagree nia.. off to harn's hse after dat.. time for her to get change n go town to meet dap n ben for dinner... seems like im house hoppin lor... i din even went hm.. haha they all were nicely dressed.. n mi anyhow dressed.. haha n i realise dat gers go out really very ma fan lor.. haha hav to c shirt match not lah.. skirt match not lah.. den make up to look presentable.. haha all gers hav tis common flaw.. well wat to do.. wanna look nice mah.. haha.. went town for dinner.. though ended up on dap eat.. cos all of us wasnt hungry.. had some nice desserts at some shop.. very nice.. but alittle on the ex side.. but its really nice.. ben left after dessert.. well the rest of us head off to liquidroom... vin come fetch us.. haha always him fetchin de.. thnx for being our chauffeur? haha liquidroom was rather nice.. quite small... but was fun... well was out whole day... so dinr really hav the energy to stand n dance for long.. n as time passes.. i realise im feeling the ache from the sunburnt! din even stay in the sun for long.. but stil got burnt.. haha supper after dat... reach hm at ard 4+.. was very tired.. but somehow i din manage to slp til 6+.. yeah.. tirin.. enjoyment no more.. from now on is pia le... exams in less den 2mths time.. hai...

- i miss him.. yet theres nothing i can do about it..-

i blogged @
7:30 PM


Thursday, September 15, 2005
wasted...

half the recess wk is over!!! so fast.. barely slack enuff n i feel dat its goin to b over... sadz... so many haven done yet.. or rather i haven do anything yet... hai... yest got the stupid lab presentation... n seriously waste of time.. n the tutor so duh... only tell us the weightage of the presentation after we all finish presented.. n guess wat! its 50% of the report!!! wth... if noe den report dun waste too much time.. n do a beta job for the presentation.. but now.. zzzz n Q&A ask stupid qns.. which we dun understand.. ended up i crapped throughout.. w/o knowing wat he was actually askin... how lame... one of mi lab mate so ke lian.. got bombarded wif qns.. n all he cant ans... yesh.. cos dun understand him mah.. well glad dat now its over... no need to care abt the report or wateva.. sianz.. haven been out for this recess wk.. wen i can go out... wat to do.. no1 pei lor.. so im hm.. bored bored bored....

-things happened for a reason, but we dont hav to know why... hai-

i blogged @
4:39 PM


Monday, September 12, 2005
recess wk.. borin!

soooo bored!!! its recess wk.. n im feeling bored!! haha well suppose to hav many things to do lah.. jus lz to get mi ass to doin it.. all the piles n piles of tut to catch up on.. zzz im so dead.. yet im stil slackin away.. haha... well went out on fri sat n sun!! hao nan de ar... all the quiz over so muz enjoy abit.. fri wen dbl o wif dap vin n kai.. ehh wasnt really enthu is goin de.. but juz wanna get out of the hse n relax... as usual.. c lots of drunk ppl.. n mostly i saw r gers!!! can u imagine it.. so ugly man... sat went to mi min n dap.. long time no c min le.. haha her frens were wif her too.. crappy frens she hav... so farnie.. make us laugh n laugh.. haha after dat went wala wif dap vin n aaron.. wasnt dat bad.. but the 2guys keep insistin dat the female singer not gd... zzzzz den sun went out wif mi mum.. more shoppin!!! hahaha go out wif mum very gd.. eat n shop all i no need to pay.. haha.. wanted to buy the adidas bag i saw wif dap on sat de... very nice... but bugis adidas outlet damn lousy.. dun hav dat bag!! so cant buy... hai.. nvm.. mayb tis wk go shop again.. den ask mi mum buy.. hehe... well goin to rot le.. later stil hav to prepare the damn lab presentation... which is such a WASTE OF TIME!!! zzzzzz

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4:37 PM


Friday, September 09, 2005
fucked up..

this wk is over.. so r mi quizzes.. term break is here.. but im not happy at all... y?? cos i fucked up most of mi quizzes.. yesh most ppl wun understand y im not happy.. dun wish to explain either.. jus another loser... so jus leave me alone..

sometimes i wonder y r there ppl hu r so insensitive... they can jus se things without thinking.. n always ended makin ppl unhappy... n wats worse is they dun even noe they r being insensitive.. n start claimin dat u r the 1 bein insensitive.. WTF! shd jus ignore tis type of pple.. they only c things in their perspectives.. n refused to c it in any other way.. n only wanted things their way.. n when its not goin their way.. they start blamin others.. but seriously.. the world dun revolve ard them only.. selfish asshole... sucks to noe such pple...

i blogged @
11:19 AM


Monday, September 05, 2005
cough cough!

updatin again.. cos im bored.. suppose to b studyin... but due to some circumstances.. im not..zzz im coughin away like mad.. n not cos i got cough.. is cos the throat jus feel damn irritating.. got phlegm den canot spit it out.. zzzz well nth much.. countin down to the wkend.. n mi break will b here.. now already thinkin of how to enjoy liao.. haha..

ohh yd long.. no need to keep sayin sorry everytime i tok to u ley.. forget to tell u tis.. haha dat time is sentosa.. now is the ride.. no prob de k.. no need feel bad!! hahaha.. well hope u r doin fine ba.. =D

zzzzz i need to study again.. zzzzz

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1:47 PM


Sunday, September 04, 2005
sa!!! dinner!! fun!!!

haha back!! enjoyed miself for the last 2days... yesh.. been a real long time since i get to enjoy miself.. wif all the crap happenin.. but enjoyin for 2days is too much!! til i din get to study for mi tests!! OMG!! goin to freak out.. but im stil here updatin mi blog.. wahahhaa.. well fri went to meet mi jc gers for dinner.. shop ard abit.. tryin to get mi shirt n present as well.. not much shou huo.. but enjoyed time spent tgt wif them.. helps mi to escape from reality for dat nite.. yup.. yest.. rotted the noon away.. n too nua to study... cos im excited abt goin back to sa!! haha.. been ages since i went back to sa.. yesh.. enjoyed all the memorable times spent there.. all the great frens i made.. n many of those i kept in contact.. n definitely the grp of frens whom i always hang out wif.. yesh.. though the studyin was bad.. but i made precious frens!! haha.. dinner at sa wasnt really fantastic.. but not really bad either.. the company is gd.. lots of crap.. as usual lah.. after dinner went to ktv.. been long time since i went ktv.. wanted to go long ago.. but was sick n mi voice sucked.. n wen recover le.. tests all comin.. hw n all.. damn stress.. but i hav to sae dat ktv is a gd way to relieve stress.. haha din realli sang alot... cos mi throat feels weird... n i keep coughin.. dunno y either.. throat feel irritated.. even now im coughin away... zzzz ok.. enuff crap.. i stil got 2 more subs yet to read.. damn.. im so dead..

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10:16 PM