Wednesday, August 31, 2005
arrrr!!! my ankle!!!

arrrrrrr!!! i sprained my ankle!! haiyo.. wat can i sae.. im careless like nobody biz again.. nv c the step... miss my step.. den sprained my ankle!! booooohooo... sad lor... tis sat is sa dinner le.. den sprain mi ankle.. how to wear heels!! hahaha.... but minor sprain i guess.. but stil pain... :_( haha.. lookin forward to sat.. can hang out wif mi frens.. so long since i enjoy some company.. haha.. yeah.. but next wk im goin to die!!! 4tests.. hai.. so far onli finish readin 1?!? bad.. ok lah.. crap.. gotta study le... zzzzz

Sunday, August 28, 2005
happy? guess not..

if only i can say that i am happy.
if only the smile i had on my face shows reality in it.
if only i can dry my own tears.
if only i can forget and move on.
if only i had found the support i need.
if only i haven lost myself.
if only i can be who i used to be.
if only if only..

i wish i was forgotten...


i.am.just.a.useless.arsehole!!

where r all the people when i needed them?

Thursday, August 25, 2005
stress to the max!

arrrrgghhh!!!!! im very stressed!! hai.. got so mani tests cumin up.. all on the same wk.. n ca r very impt for mi!!! die die.. not enuff time to study.. n i got lab project report to hand in next wk!!! argh.. so mani tuts to catch up.. all the notes piling up.. n i hav totally no idea wat r all the lects abt.. arrgghh!! needa vent!! hai.. tink im becuming a nerd le... everyday bz doin tut.. wkend spent studyin at hm.. wen im not studyin or doin tut.. im playin comp games.. so dats wat nerds do rite.. long time since i hav been out.. haven bein enjoyin for quite sum time.. but now oso cant enjoy yet... need to do all those stuffs waitin for mi.. hai.. i need a break from all of these!! get out of here n b gone.. if only if only..

Monday, August 22, 2005
more normal??

im back!! haha well lets jus say.. im more normal now ba.. cos ive think thru things... if i sae im not sad.. i wld b lyin.. how not to b sad rite... after all it was dat long.. well.. now i stil dunno where im headin.. or wat we r now.. but im not goin to tink animore.. jus leave things as it is.. mayb it will get beta.. or mayb becum worse.. but im not goin to care.. n not lettin it affect mi... yes.. n definitely thanks to those hu had listened to mi.. though i dun get much response.. but thanks for ur ears n those company.. haha.. well life's gettin borin.. so basically im hm most of the days.. or rather.. everyday ba.. not much stuff.. n din realli feel like goin out... i dunno y... yesh goin to sch is a bore too.. basicalli im jus being a lightbulb everywhere... ohh nonono.. upgraded.. not lightbulb liao.. is lamp post!! yeah.. imagine sittin im betwn 2couples!! though all r frens.. but stil is weird lah.. but wat to do.. i dun hav much frens to go lect... so im stuck wif dat ba... haha n yeah.. probably becum a nuisance to them too.. affectin all their er ren shi jie... so sry hav to b lamp post wor.. haha hmmm.. mayb i can jus go alone.. oso not bad.. mad... even more borin..

sayin all dat.. i realise i missed doin lots of things.. but guess i probably wun hav the chance to do those stuffs again ba.. so now im jus waitin for time to pass.. everyday.. every hr... every min.. every sec.. is jus wastin away.. dun realli seem to cherish much of mi time.. cos now it seems like i got too much time on hand.. haha so any1 wan to go out or where.. jus giv mi a call.. i will definitely b free.. but it stil depends on i wan go not.. wahahaha..

Saturday, August 20, 2005
wat the fuck!

arrrgggh!!! WTF!!! the damn tv is spoilt!!! shit.. there goes mi only form of entertainment.. nth seems to b goin rite for mi.. even the damn tv is against mi... now i got no tv to watch.. both tv r spoilt!! arrggghhhh... n wats worse is dat its the wkend!!! n the damn care centre is not open.. so cant call n make appointment for repair... so i guess the earlist date mi tv will get repaired is on fri?!?! arrghh... mi whole wk will b damn sianz... shit shit shit!!! hai.. jus so damn suay wif everythin... now mi mum hav to go buy a new tv.. cos the tv now spoil.. hav to waste mi mum's money again.. hai.. so tis whole wk i wun hav much entertainment liao.. new tv will b in mi mum's rm.. arrgghhh... life is sooo not gd for mi.. shitty..

Tuesday, August 16, 2005
goin blind..

everythin is jus goin from bad to worse.. now not onli sick.. even mi eye is not cooperating.. rite eye is swollen.. dunno y.. wat the hell.. blink oso pain.. n i cant seem to c where is the prob.. mayb i shd jus go blind lah.. hai.. now everything is so complicated.. i dunno wat to do.. wat to say.. or even where do i stand.. is it over? or is it not? to wait or not to wait? been waitin soo long.. n it din go anywhere.. so wats the pt? wen i ended up bein hurt n sad... if dun wait.. i dun hav an aim anymore.. n i will jus b waitin for life to pass mi by.. i dunno i dunno..

Monday, August 15, 2005
im all alone...

hai.. back again... wun say dat things r normal for mi.. but now i got mi ans.. n noe where am i headin le.. yes after 2yrs n 9mths...everything has come to an end.. sadness ovrwhelm mi.. but theres nth more i can do.. hav already given up mi hope.. dun ask mi y or wat happen.. now i hav to get use to mi life 2yrs n 9mths n 1 day ago.. back wen im carefree again.. i dunno wat to feel animore.. had alreadi tried cryin everyday for 15days .. but the hurt is over liao... hope is gone.. so now im all alone..

Sunday, August 14, 2005
stil sick n abnormal..

after so many days.. im stil sick.. n wats more... it got worse... zzzzz stil sore throat.. n not much voice too.. arrghh.. n to make it worse.. i got cough! hai.. tink i wun recover in probably another 2wks.. realise dat once im sick.. i very hard to recover.. though i rarely sick... now drownin in self-pity.. wat to do.. i cldnt even bother to look after miself anyway.. ha well like wat i wld usualli sae... at most die only mah.. haha.. well nvm.. im abnormal tis few days.. or dat im tryin to b normal.. but wen was i even normal?? hmm contradictin.. enuff say.. now time to attack mi notes.. zzz

ohh before i leave.. happy birthday to chaota!! haha.. n wat do u wan huh? u dun wan reply mi.. den i post here le.. hahaha

Tuesday, August 09, 2005
back?? mayb..

well after a wk plus of MIA from mi blog.. decided to cum back n blog today.. well mayb for today ba.. 1stly happy birthday singapore!! yesh.. singapore is now twice mi age le.. hahaha... hmm nth much.. dun wan explain y im gone n 'abandoned' mi blog.. dun wan to tink.. now im sick... yesh wat a time to b sick.. all thnx to the weird weather recently.. zzzz was a feelin dat im fallin sick from dunno how long ago.. den now sick.. haha.. so now im sick n mayb miserable? yeah... uncomfortable rite now.. go i beta go liao.. til sum time later ba.. wen everythin is normal again...