Tuesday, June 28, 2005
secretly updatin...

haha here to update.. muz b wonderin y i can update at such a time rite.. well in office secretly updatin lor.. haha nth to do.. so bored lor.. rottin n yet need to act busy.. so sianz 1 lor.. well realise dat workin has taken up so much of mi time dat i dun hav time for mani things.. i miss hangin out wif mi frens.. slackin away at hm.. havin nth to do yet i dun feel sianz.. i am missin out on alot of things due to workin lor.. its like im livin in a world of mi own n not knowin wat is happenin ard mi... arr... very very no life.. n its not like im earnin tons of money either.. nvm im goin to quit real soon.. den i can go out all i wan liao... but den oso no1 free to go out wif mi lor.. c how sad rite.. end up jus stay at hm ba.. but stil beta den work n work n work.. n no time for miself lor.. jus 1 more wk!! beta get back to actin bz liao... -yawnz-

continued..

back at hm.. nth to do.. so back again.. well work stil not bad at least after lunch onwards no need to act bz cos got mani things to do.. haha i prefer workin wif things to do.. u giv mi alot of things to do i oso dun mind.. now stil comtemplatin as to wen im goin to quit.. n dunno which job i wanna quit.. seems like its much beta to quit the wkend job lor.. since its like rather sucky.. n the office job get to earn more... but den for sum untold reasons its hard for mi to quit the wkend job.. so now hav to quit the office job?? oso dunno ley... hao fan ar!!! tink hav to c tis wkend how is the flyer job liao.. if its stil ok nth nth screwed up den i will quit office job.. if sumhow i feel pissed den well i hav to quit the flyers job liao.. but den oso hard to sae lah.. there is a big fight goin on in mi head lor.. for those hu understand mi will noe wat im tinkin ba.. hai.. now i feel so unappreciated for mi efforts.. for tryin to make things gd for others while im tryin mi best to help.. n yet im stil am blame for things dat goes wrong... n no1 truly understand wat im tryin to do.. will onli sae dat im dumb to do all those stuffs i did... but well sumtimes efforts jus go to waste n yet im stil carry on doin those things... well wonder how mani ppl understand wat im writin here.. probably none ba.. cos i oso dunno wat im tryin to sae.. hao fan ar!!

-i wanna cry, hu wan to join me.... T_T-