Friday, April 29, 2005
im goin to taiwan!

yeah.. finally the day has cum.. for mi to go to taiwan! yeah.. wun b able to update for a wk.. so pple dun miss readin mi blog k.. n dun miss mi!! i will b enjoyin miself in taiwan.. haha.. yeah.. 1 last update b4 i go.. so pple.. cya all in 1 wk time!

Thursday, April 28, 2005
he's back!!

thurs is finally here! dear came back tis mornin.. so happy... went to meet him n watch movie.. very long no watch movie liao.. hee.. n now got pple pei mi le.. n got pple can tok to mi!! but den.. i will b leavin for taiwan in 2days.. kinda excited.. but hav to leave dear alone in singapore... he cum back den i leave.. yeah.. dun b too bored k.. hee.. well.. actualli can extend 2more days in taiwan.. but i rejected.. 1stly is dat im low on cash.. i dun intend to borrow money from ani1.. cos if wan extend den need more money.. feel bad to take from mi mum.. since she alreadi paid for the trip n all mi expenses there.. n i din pay a single cent... so if get more from her like quite bad.. so dun wan.. den bro.. he oso not much money lah.. dun wan lend since he was alreadi nice enuff to lend mi money for mi bangkok trip.. yeah.. so being rational i shd turn down.. though i do really wan to extend.. but only if i can afford it miself.. since i cant.. den suan liao... not within mi budget n plan.. so yeah... 2ndly.. if extend den i will b gone for quite sum time til like after bangkok.. n onli came back for like 2days den leave for bangkok liao... den so rush.. n shd b gd ger n stay hm rite.. n 3rdly.. if go rite.. den i will not be able to pei him for 2weekends.. like so long.. so dun wan extend.. den can pei him oso.. hee.. so ya.. i forgo the chance of enjoyin more... arrr!!! to tink i can resist this soooo nice temptation.. nvm.. at least i get to go taiwan rite.. haha... 7days is enuff le.. be satisfied mah.. hahaha.... ok.. very happy so typed so much crap liao.. yeah..

continued....

well.. jus got an update from mi jc fren.. dat they r goin to celebrate 2 of my frens' birthday on sat... the day im leavin for taiwan.. yes... they r leavin mi out.. cos i will b gone for quite sum time.. n they cldnt wait til i cum back from taiwan.. which is like only 1 wk later... wats more is that since they already waited soooo long to celebrate 1 of their birthday... like almost 1mth+.. n cldnt jus wait a wk more for mi to cum back... hai.. n to tink dat im actually considerin to buy sum stuff back for them.. tink i shdnt waste that money now.. hai... sumtimes i really wonder y i bother stil keepin in contact wif them.. since it is like i was nv on their list of close frens.. n i nv noe wat is up wif them.. mayb was mi fault cos i din bother to keep in contact? or theirs cos they nv bother to ask mi out wen they r goin for outin themselves... hai.. disappointin.. y do i even bother so much?? wen they cant even rem mi birthday.. n i took an effort to rem all their birthday.. n wats worse.. wen its mi birthday.. no1 bother to realli go organise an outin or wateva.. y do i hav to get sooo low jus to b their frens.. im not being appreciated aniwae.. so y shd i bother rite? cos they r mi frens.. n they do matter to mi.. i cherish all the frens i make... mayb they do try to get mi in.. but sumhow they din try hard enuff?? wateva.. jus disappointed dat im jus not being appreciated.. nvm.. i stil got mi grp of gd frens whom i noe will appreciate mi.. n realli do take mi as their fren.. yeah.. shdnt dwell on it... i goin for taiwan.. n can truly enjoy miself!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005
finally its all over!!

yeah!!! im officially free.. free from exams!! free from studyin!! well at least for the next 2mths+.. wahahahaha.. yes.. taiwan im cumin!! yeah... happy happy... well.. basicalli todae is the last day of mi exams... n i tink i will screw up the last paper.. but i oso dun reallic are much lah.. since its onli prescibed.. not very impt.. jus pass can liao.. but tink wan jus pass oso hard lor... haha i had no idea wat i was doin for the whole paper. i dun seem to b tinkin.. n cant seem to b able to do any of the qn.. but den i oso dun care liao lah.. at most dun earn dat AUs lor... ahahaha.. mad liao.. happy.. i no need to touch the bks animore...!! well.. for those stil havin exams.. work hard k.. study more n dun b like mi... b4 u noe it.. it will b over liao.. hang in there!! n lastly.. gd luck to whoever havin exams... =)

Friday, April 22, 2005
only 1 more left...

im so much happier now.. haha.. c just wat a call had made.. it made mi day so much better.. yeah.. after the call last nite.. i realise i must work hard liao.. though its abit late til now wen its almost the end of the exams liao.. onli left 1 last paper next wk.. yeah.. n i realli did work hard last nite... though it onli started last nite.. well.. better late den never rite.. so wat ccan i sae... dat todae paper.. i most probably will pass.. mayb not well.. but can pass.. n im very satisfied wif miself.. well onli for this paper lah.. cos i realli giv in mi best... n i finally went in to the exam hall wif sum confidence.. n yes.. i can do most of the qns.. well at least i try to do them all lah.. yeah.. so now im happy!! haha.. though i stil regretted not workin hard enough previous wk.. so all the 1st few papers will b rather screwed up.. but tis paper.. makes mi so much happier.. haha..

thnx dear for his call.. for the past 1 wk nv tok to him.. den rather sad n no mood to study.. but yest he call den make mi so happy.. den i got mood study liao.. hee.. if not tink i tis paper oso die le...

-hav to work hard for the final paper-

Thursday, April 21, 2005
argh!!

argh.. im back to rant!!! hai.. cant believe im so screwed up liao.. yest phy paper.. hai... paper wasnt hard.. but den.. i last 2qns.. brain not workin!! cant tink... sheesh.. cham liao.. n wats worse.. got 4marks i bai bai give away.. summore is ez qn.. sure can get marks... but i din saw that qns!!! WTH... seriuosly tinkin i mite actualli fail phy.. if only mi brain can tink... if not i sure pass liao... y my brain stop workin!!! argh.... damn sad after yest paper... hai.. affected mi mood for mat sci liao.. wat to do!!! realli all mi paper i not confidence of passin ani.. hope those tutors hav mercy.. let mi pass... hai.....

Monday, April 18, 2005
life sci over..

2nd day of exams.. life sci.. tink oso screwed up liao... 70mcq... n more den half of it i was jus goin wif intuition.. dunno how to do.. so mani terms n greek words i nv c b4.. dun even noe how to memorise them.. c those words alreadi half blur liao.. how to memorise... yeah.. crappy... crappy ntu engineerin.. wat for learn life sci.. jus a waste of mi time.. tis 1 i realli not sure if will b able to pass... cos i realli onli noe a few ans out of 70.. hai.. hope wun bao tis.. giv mi a D enough liao.. lucky mi quiz stil did not bad.. hope can help..

well.. left wif 3 more papers.. tis wk is super stress wk.. all the hard major papers tis wk.. n those r the paper i no confidence in... hope the lecturers r gd lah.. den giv easier paper.. if not tink im so dead! so far the papers r killers... well got a feelin all goin to b like dat liao... hai...

-wonder how mani subs i will fail tis sem.. ponder-

Friday, April 15, 2005
1st day only..

ok.. after the 1st day im stil surviving.. n its onli the 1st day i alreadi wish everythin is over soon.. argh.. todae was rather bad.. maths paper was rather hard.. well mayb its jus dat mi standard stil not gd enough.. though qns can b done 1.. not possible.. im just not gd enough.. hai... did a few stupid careless mistake.. i cant believe dat im a uni student!! even kindergarden kids can do the math lor.. 0.15*10=??? guess wat i get!?! i got 15!!! wat the... can u actually believe im a uni student?? cant even do simple maths.. cos of this dumb mistake tink more marks r gone.. hai..

2nd paper was human origins... that 1 is more slack.. din study for it actualli cos the lecturer sae he will most probably pass every1 as long as ur matric no dun write wrongly.. so dun realli study for it.. but i stil giv in mi best shot.. tried writin wateva i can n wat i learnt from the course.. but mostly tink i wrote crap n basically jus repeatin miself.. ha.. JUST GREAT!

hai.. mi onli chance of possible B is probably down the drain liao.. tis sem tink goin to do badly liao.. tink mostly will get Cs, Ds, or Fs liao lor.. y i say so? cos i got tis same feeling i got wen i took mi A's.. n the feeling is very right.. dats y i did do badly for A's.. n now.. guess everythin will repeatin again liao.. its jus all mi fault.. i din put in all mi effort.. wat to do.. jus another failure ba.. so sick of mi life.. argh!! y is it wen i needed sum1 to tok to.. dat sum1 jus wasnt here!!!

-i'm waitin for ur call... but it din came.. sad-

Wednesday, April 13, 2005
the day he left me forever..

Ok. Stupid blogger is screwing up again. Just finish typing a super long entry and the blogger have to screw it up when I click publish. Now I have to retype everything again. Argh!

Was saying that this is going to be a long and boring entry. So if people get bored with reading it, then don't continue reading it. Well, this entry is in memory of one who is very dear to me and had left me.

13 April 2004 - A year ago, on this very day, I lost my most trusted and bested friend I can ever had. He is my dog-Nicky. I only had him with me for 5 short-lived years. I regretted not having spent more time with him, doted on him more and caring enough for him. He would still be here with me if it weren't for our negligence.

1 year ago, I sent him away to a place far, far away and that I will not be able to see him again. For days, I cried, missing him, thinking of him and yearning for him to come back even though I knew that was not possible. I thought nothing worse could have happened and I was at my absolute downpoint of my life.

A year later, I still miss him and thought of him from time to time. I know you all must be wondering that he was only a dog and no one should hang on to this hurt for so long. But all of you wont understand how much I loved him and to some extent I depended on him being there for me when I'm sad or happy. He accompanied me through my lonely days and when no one was there to care or understand me. What hurts me most is seeing him suffered all the pain and there is nothing I can do to alleviate the pain. I was heartbroken. From the look of his eyes, I can see that he is in great pain and the only thing I can do to make him feel better is to let him go. I can feel that he was longing to stay and he was afraid, afraid of leaving and being left behind by us. I had no choice but to let him go. The least that I can do is staying with him till the very last moment, till he fell lifeless in my arms. I cried seeing him lying on the table not moving anymore and I knew that I would never be able to see him again.

Now, I don't feel the hurt as much, but I do miss him. Maybe 'cos I have a new mate to accompany me and I'm healing. For now, I hope he is better at the other side and that I will never forget all the joy he had brought to me.

All of these are in the past, just memories to be kept forever. I had learnt to more forward. On the brighter side, at least I have Zhu Zhu/Money with me now. I will give her all the love I can. As you all can see, I'm an ultimate dog-lover. Haha

P/s: Must be wondering how come my dog's name is Zhu Zhu/Money right? Haha, well here is the story:
The previous owner named her "Money" and refused to tell my bro her name. So, we though that the dog doesn't had a name and decided to call her Zhu Zhu, since she responded to that when we called it. So now, she got 2names, but basically, she doesn't respond well to either name (maybe respond more to "Money", haha). Anyway, she seems to respond more to the word "come". Haha. Funny dog.

Ok, that is basically what I want to say and what had in mind. Till later..

-off to STUDY!!! I still miss him-

Monday, April 11, 2005
stupid blogger

finalli i can log in to blogger liao.. damn blogger.. been screwin up for the last few days.. den those post i type all gone.. how dumb.. yeah.. mon liao.. fri exams officially start.. n yet i haven been doin much.. realli no mood to study lor.. so mani things waitin for mi.. n yet im stil delayin everythin... hai... y cant time jus fast forward to jus over exams.. like dat i dun need to take exams.. how i wish! uni sucked!! everythin sucked!!! argh!!

fri dear left for brunei liao.. no1 to accompany mi throughout the exams period.. sad.. no1 to tok to mi liao.. hai... cant even tok to him for 3wks.. hope everything will b fine for him.. cant wait for 28 to cum.. den dear will b back liao.. countin down..

-exams sucked, stress to the max!!-

Wednesday, April 06, 2005
onli 1 day more..

jus came hm.. went to meet dear in the noon.. he goin brunei tml nite liao.. so sad.. den no pple to pei mi for the next 3wks.. summore exam period.. den i stress no1 can entertain mi.. =( exams over liao he stil haven cum back lor.. hai.. goin to b a loner for the next 3wks liao.. 1moer dae left for sch.. den hav to pia for exams... no matter how much i dislike tis dumb course.. or how much i dread studyin for it.. i stil hav to pia.. hav to do well.. if not i will regret it.. dun wish to feel the regrets again... miss mi dear.. hai...

Monday, April 04, 2005
birthday!! daphne!!

happy 20th birthday daphne!!! haha.. last wk of sch b4 exams le.. so sianz... time like past so fast... n its time for exams again.. seems like sch jus barely started.. n another is over?? wonder wat hav i been doin durin tis whole sem.. hmm.. haha yeah.. jus recieved an email from mi mat sci tut.. quiz results.. well not wat i had expected.. but guess its fact ba.. though did study for mani days.. but stil like dat.. haiyo.. wat is mat sci!!!! tink exams mat sci screwed liao.. jus hopin for a D again.. jus like chem last time.. haha.. yeah.. stil need to study.. tml got phy quiz.. hav to do well cos hav to kao CA to pass EXAMS!!! sigh...

Friday, April 01, 2005
shoppin!!

shoppin dae!! haha cld u all imagine it!! exams nearin n yet i can stil go shop... how GREAT rite.. haha.. well hav to get presents mah.. owe pple present.. den exams cumin no time to shop liao... by the time exams over birthday oso long over.. go get it now lor.. well.. went queensway in the noon wif dap n marc to get dap's present... hope u like it.. n yeah i guess u can choose another present.. but hav to b soon.. like next wk?? cos after dat reali exams no time get liao.. den like half down like dat.. not nice.. so dap!!! faster tink of ur 2nd item if u wan any..!! haha yeah.. seriously broke.. so mani birthday.. i wonder how am i goin to go to bangkok.. probably w/o money lor.. how sad rite.. yeah.. aniwae.. evenin went to town to meet the rest of the bowlers.. n thnx marc for the ride to orchard!! how nice of u.. haha had dinner n after dat went to buy harn's present.. which is like FINALLY!! after delayin so long n her tinkin of wat she wan for her present.. haha.. yeah.. hope u like ur present too!! since u choose it urself =) yeah.. so broke now.. pple owe mi money 1.. pay mi after dap choose her 2nd item lor.. haha..