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her self


June/Juney
1st June 1985
Graduate/Unemployed
Simple yet complicated/nice yet evil/ smart yet stupid/bad-tempered yet tolerant/cynical yet hopeful

A simple girl who yearns for a simple life, with simple wants and simple needs.

"I'm just an actor in life,
hiding behind all my roles"

her loves


- Things she loves in life -
her family/nicky/dogs/theOSBs/F5/ktv/ games/tv/novels/anime/TWdramas

- Things she couldnt live without -
air/water/food/hp/laptop/ipod/ family/friends/music


her notes





her reads


= aaron =
= bee =
= bene =
= ben =
= daph =
= fred =
= jack =
= jane =
= jasc =
= jess =
= liang =
= min =
= phil =
= shane =
= shu =
= vin =
= yun =

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Thursday, March 03, 2005
i feel like cryin...

tears welled up in mi eyes.. i wan to cry but i cant cry.. yu ku wu lei.. damn frustrated wif everythin ard mi... nth seems to b goin mi way.. not dat i bein ba dao or wat.. but i dun seem to b happy.. not like b4.. not animore... sumtimes i do wish everything goes mi way.. but u dun hav to agree to it.. u dun hav to put mi in the 1st place everytime.. sumtimes it jus irritates mi.. i dun wan u to giv in to mi jus to make mi happy.. i oso wan u to b happy.. n let u do those things u wan to do.. i dun wan to b so selfish to do things onli for miself.. i oso wan to do things for u.. but u nv consider it.. den jus do things mi way.. it doesnt matter if i got angry or wat.. cos i will get over it.. n noe dat things dun alwiz happen the way i wanted.. cant u jus b selfish.. at least i will b happier n not so one-sided.. like dat im oso very xin ku... n im not happy dat things alwiz goes mi way... mi way is not alwiz the rite way.. im very unhappy.. very unhappy.. dunno wat to do.. n i hate to c u so sianz.. cos i noe im the 1 dat make u so sianz.. n i dun like it.. dats y everytime i ended up cryin to miself.. in the middle of the nite.. not wantin u to noe.. dat im very sad dat wateva u r feelin im the cause of it... things r not the same as b4.. im not happy wif mi life.. wif mi studies.. wif everythin ard mi.. but hu is there to understand mi?? i tot u understand... but u dun.. im unhappy.. n i wan to cry...

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