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her self


June/Juney
1st June 1985
Graduate/Unemployed
Simple yet complicated/nice yet evil/ smart yet stupid/bad-tempered yet tolerant/cynical yet hopeful

A simple girl who yearns for a simple life, with simple wants and simple needs.

"I'm just an actor in life,
hiding behind all my roles"

her loves


- Things she loves in life -
her family/nicky/dogs/theOSBs/F5/ktv/ games/tv/novels/anime/TWdramas

- Things she couldnt live without -
air/water/food/hp/laptop/ipod/ family/friends/music


her notes





her reads


= aaron =
= bee =
= bene =
= ben =
= daph =
= fred =
= jack =
= jane =
= jasc =
= jess =
= liang =
= min =
= phil =
= shane =
= shu =
= vin =
= yun =

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Saturday, January 29, 2005
nicky's birthday...

ok.. mus b wonderin y am i updatin at such a time rite.. well.. aniwae dun tink anione cares lah... suppose to b at ben's chalet like now?!? but i blew up n left.. din wan to come hm either.. jus feel like wanderin ard the streets... dunno y... sth is jus fucked up wif mi?? too much unhappiness?? too much build up frustration?? or its jus mi... initialli was fine at the chalet.. den guess im tinkin too much again... n i felt so damn pissed.. not at ani1.. jus wif miself.. so i blew up.. n liang sorry k... not scoldin u... or ani1 there in fact... its jus happen to blew up.. dunno y either.. got too pissed wif miself dat i felt dat i need to scold sum1?? nvm... no pt explainin aniwae.. alwiz felt dat there's no need to explain things.. cos wats the pt rite?? it onli make matter worse?? so rather pple get the wrong idea all along lah... hai... findin the need to cry rite now... i miss mi dog... todae was suppose to his birthdae.. if hes stil ard he will b 6 liao... but he wasnt ard animore.. n nv will b... mayb dats y i blew up.. i miss mi dog alot alot... everythin jus wasnt rite for mi... n how i wish mi dog will b here to comfort mi... but he will nv be ard animore... hai... too much is runnnin thru mi head.. n im feelin awful everywhere... realli feel like i shd jus die... no pt sufferin... hai... sorry mi frens... i hardly got angry in front of mi frens b4.. tis is like the few times i actualli did.. n realli sorry to ben.... i spoil ur chalet... hope i din spoil ur mood... n especialli liang lor... tink u wasnt feelin gd in the 1st place.. n i hav to scream at u lah... n sorry to the others hu is there too... sorry sorry... will b beta once i get mi slp... but it will nv b over for mi....

-i hate miself soooo much.... n i miss nicky much much more....-

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