Saturday, January 08, 2005
lovelife over..
hai... dunno wat to feel rite now.. i jus spoil mi everythin i ever had wif mi own hands... numb to anithin... regretted wat i did... n as to y i did it.. i may not hav a gd explanation y.... most imptly.. i dun wan to hurt him... but does he noe wat i realli feel inside?? all those feelings dat i had kept inside mi for the past 2yrs... n tis onli time i did sth wrong.. i ruined everythin we had for the last 2yrs.. no1 to blame but onli me... hai... jus take a knife n end it all ba.. i dun feel anithin animore... tis time is realli screwed liao... dun tink anithin can save wateva i had done.. i wan to blame dat stupid fuck up guy.. but wats the pt?? if only i done wat is rite in the beginnin... such thing will not happen.. im sad.. im broken.. but does he realli noe wat i feel.. i dun tink so.. n i dun need ani1 out there to help mi... jus leave mi to mi own misery... hai... i need a listenin ear... but y bother?? i wan to tell u... but u will not understand wat i feel... no1 i can confide in animore.. livin in a world of only me.... n no feelings.. hai
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