Friday, December 31, 2004
everythin is soooo screwed up!!

argh!!!! everything is soooo screwed up!!!! so irritatin!!! start wif mistupid comp... dunno for wat reason got sum stupid weblinks icon on the desktops n in mi favourites.. n it canot be DELETED!!! wat the hell lor.. is onli sae 1 or 2.. its a whole damn list.. SHIT!! dun even no wats dat lor.. n its sumhow not detected in mi comp memory.. as if it nv existed or wat.. but its there!!1 n i can c it.. n b access.. jus it canot be deleted... argh!! screwed up man.. dl spyware detector.. but oso no use.. not spyware oso no virus... dunno wat the hell is dat... tis is onli the 1st thing... 2nd is mi damn toilet light spoil!! n i hav to bathe in the dark lor.. crap man... mi mum bathe the lights workin fine.. she came out.. n mi turn to bathe.. the damn lights canot work animore!!! damn the lights... n the 3rd screwed up is the stupid CPF payment for mi sch fees!!!! it says not enuff money to deduct for mi sch fees... wat the hell man.. where u wan mi to dig 2000bucks giv u ar!!! SHIT them lah.... den now oso dunno can do wat to it.. dunno can change to another person CPF a/c not.. if not tink i can forget abt studyin animore lor.. no money to fuckin pay the damn fucked up uni!!! jus wen i decided to try n do well for the damn course.. now tis stupid CPF payment canot go thru.. fated no meant to study in uni.. jus not cut out for it... argh!!! everythin is jus fuckin goin wrong lah..

shitty year.. shitty day!!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2004
natural disaster in asia!

back once again.. haha bloggin cos nth beta to do.. catch the news todae.. den realise wat GREAT damages had the tsunami n earthquake has done to our wonderful land.. its almost like the worst ever to hit... so mani dead... n miraclously singapore is 'uninjured'... lucky or wat.. but wat the natures had cuase is sooo fearful man... is the world cumin to an end?? haha crap.. well mayb.. abit like the movie the day after tml... yeah.. mayb i will go donate lah.. c singaporeans so mani so helpful.. make mi feel like helpin too.. though wun able to donate much... but at least it helps lor.. hahaha

ohh... ya... thnx harn for ur chocolate.. its nice.. haha.. like tis type of chocolate... n yeah.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENE!!! miss out durin mi previous post.. so too bz indulgin on mi own pity.. haha


haha.. tired.. but quite happy.. went sentosa.. wif the bowlers again... so fun.. tis time not bad.. quite alot of ppl.. haha.. well.. sun veli hot todae.. face abit burnt... n got abit darker i tink.. haha.. yeah.. crappy bowlers.. c wat they do things tgt.. damn farnie lor.. entertainment ley.. went ktv later in the evenin.. wif them lah.. haha so farnie oso lor... makin a fool out of ourselves.. sing those super retro cheena songs.. n make stupid actions.. n all do the same action.. den so farnie...!! hahha.. crap.. tink all went alittle mad at ktv lah.. n now worse.. im gettin even broker!! haha.. crap.. enjoy the company wif mi frens... they nv fail to brin laughter into mi life.. haha...

well.. juz sum tots... ever wonder how u can feel sooo lonely.. even wen u hav a whole grp of ur closest frens wif u?? yesh.. sumtimes i feel dat... dat there is tis permenant loneliness inside.. dat no matter how mani pple giv u as much attention.. tis loneliness will not go away.. y is tis so??? cos of sum unfulfilled wants? mayb.. i dunno.. or u jus lack the attention of a certain sum1?? neither do i noe dat.. n tink loneliness is hidden sooo deep down in ur heart.. dat sumtimes late in the nite.. it overwhelms u.. n u jus cried.. for no reason or watsoever.. yesh.. sumtimes i cried.. n i oso dunno y.. tears jus cum to mi eyes.. wen i feel tis loneliness.. weird or wat?? or isit onli me?? or dat i hav so much unhappiness dat im not willing to let go??? so mani qns.. n i can nv find mi ans... i jus dun c the light at the end of mi tunnel.. ani1 wan to lend mi a guidin light??

Monday, December 27, 2004
borin daes again...

xmas is over.... dun feel the slightest festive mood.. though went rd wishin ppl merry xmas..but i dun feel merry at all.. tis xmas not nice.. neither is it happy.. jus an ordinary other daes.... had beta daes lor... dun wan to sae much... n dun wan to sae y... not a person hu expresses wat i feel... rather hide everything inside... nvm... tis yr abt to over liao... wateva has happened is in the past... n im lookin forward to the future... made sum resolutions for the new yr.. post it on the new yr.. meanwhile i will tink of more to change... off to rottin once again...

Saturday, December 25, 2004
christmas dae...

hohoho.. christmas christmas.. very free... so sing chirstmas song for all of u!!

I wish u all Merry Christmas,
I wish u all Merry Christmas,
I wish u all Merry Christmas,
And a Happy New Year!!

haha.. well u all can c dat im veli free lah.. i manage to go almost every1 tagboard to leave msg.. onli for those wif tagboard lah.. sry for those no taggie 1.. haha... wat to do.. countdown at hm.. playin minesweeper.. yes.. wat to do.. hav been stayin at hmm since mon.. til like now.. i haven go out lor.. yeah.. poor mi.. no frens so here i am countin down on xmas wif minesweeper!!! ok.. enuff of mi complainin lah.. aniwae.. its xmas.. u all enjoy ya dae.. n may u hav the best xmas.. n new yr is round the corner too.. hahahaha!!

Thursday, December 23, 2004
lack of slp..

ok.. jus deleted dat pissed off entry.. dats how bad mood i am in wen pple wake mi up from mi beauty slp.. yeah.. n tis mornin wake up.. not in the correct piece of mind... so full of vulgarities.. so deleted it liao... yeah.. can c how violent a person i can b.. sum pple mite have the 'pleasure' of readin it.. was onli up for a few hrs.. so now deleted it.. argh.. tink for the next few daes wun hav gd slp liao.. the contracted left a notice on mi doorstep.. sayin the renovation (which is the demolishin of walls n floor) will b til 28dec!! so shit!! now i wun hav gd slp animore.. argh... crap... the dae b4 xmas eve.. n mi dae is so spoiled! haiz... need to slp.. sianz...

Tuesday, December 21, 2004
rotted me~

ok.. bored me.. or rather rotted me... probably goin to rot for the rest of tis wk til the wkend liao lor.. no progs.. n no pple jio mi out... aha... n most impt.. im stil very broke lor... yeah.. so no choice.. stay hm n eat maggi liao.. hmm xmas tis wkend... but dun realli feel much... not like the past.. guess rot too much liao lah.. slack n slack.. tink sch start i will go mad... was tinkin.. wah.. how did i study for 10hrs in a dae... now u ask mi to go get mi bks.. i will die lor.. haven pack mi bks n notes lor.. stil lyin ard.. hahah guess u all can c how lz i am liao lor... well.. crap again... yeah.. plannin for NYE thing.. cant wait for it.. haha.. bowlers gatherin again i guess... last 2yrs already spent countin down wif them.. tis yr no surprise.. haha our yrly routine?? well mayb.. if we stil keep in contact la... hahahhaa

Sunday, December 19, 2004
finalli im out!!

yeah.. after rottin for so mani daes.. finalli i went out on fri n sat.. haha.. fri went to meet mi cousins.. exchange our xmas gifts! haha.. nice nice.. thnx min n dap.. n the dog dap gave mi veli cute.. haha.. like mi dog like dat.. hee had nice dinner.. not veli ex actualli.. after dat went suntec the midnite shoppin lor... wah rarely c got so mani ppl so late liao stil shoppin ard lor.. typical singaporeans man.. got sales den sure long long que.. haiz.. kiasu! haha..

sat... went out wif dear.. as usual lah.. no money go out wif him den he can pay for mi.. so gd rite.. hee.. went watch ocean's twelve.. well.. wat to sae.. the plot kinda lame.. overall stil not dat bad.. but ocean's eleven is so much nicer lor.. well for those hu is readin n wantin to watch tis show.. im goin to spoil it!!! hahahha.. well.. throughout the show there is no stealing of anything!!! crap man.. no at all like ocean's eleven.. haha.. too bad i told u all liao.. u all can stil catch to c the whole story urself.. but basicalli i expected sum major stealin.. but nah.. NONE!! but brad pitt is damn yandao!! OMG!!! haha.. george clooney(guess i spell correctly) so old liao.. but stil got the 'cool' look.. haha.. crappy..

ohh saw mi sec sch gd fren on the bus.. since ages wen i last met her!! how nice man.. she used to sit beside mi.. n we r alwiz crappin away in class!! haha n yes.. its alwiz her hu get scolded by teacher.. n i dunno y oso.. hahaha.. had a short chat wif her.. well.. din noe dat she went to SIM wen all along i tot she is at NUS!! was kinda shocked!! she alwiz soo smart in sec sch man... top few.. n now sae she cant get in local uni.. well.. kinda like mi lor... sec sch gd grades.. n A's SHITTY grades!! yeah.. guess dat 2yrs in jc realli change alot man.. but i stil couldnt believe dat she cant get in.. well.. nice to c her again.. n let mi tink of mi old times back in sec sch.. nice feelin.. how i wish time will jus stop at sec sch... its the nicest period in mi life.. though i dun realli like the sch.. but i love mi frens in there!! truest frens i ever found lor.. haha.. notice sth.. i alwiz dun like mi sch.. dunno y.. sth in mi dat makes mi hate sch i guess.. hahahaha dats abt all.. wrote a long compo liao.. kinda chatty hahaha.. well tml will b another dae out.. goin to sum bbq at aaron's hse.. haha.. its free mah.. n thnx to aaron's mom! haha

Friday, December 17, 2004
rotted...

rotted... badly decomposed... yeah.. mi routine everydae... wake up.. eat lunch.. well usualli i wake up is noon liao.. den sit in front of the comp til dinnertime.. after dat.. in front of tv... bathe.. n more comp after dat n read book b4 i slp.. so i hav been repeatin dat for tis whole wk.. almost lah.. yeah.. borin mi... well at least tml goin out.. goin to meet mi cousin.. our pre-xmas meetin up.. haha dats wat we did every yr... yeah.. not bad rite.. so close wif mi cousins.. haha.. dun tink mani pple r dat close to their cousins lah.. crap again... borin life.. dun tink ani1 will b readin tis lah.. probably will fall aslp liao... wat to do.. no money den no go out.. sianz....

Wednesday, December 15, 2004
crap crap..

update update.. nth to update.. but im bored.. so here i am again.. been updatin almost everyday?? well no money cant go out.. so can onli blog n blog n blog... haha.. new organisation form.. HAPA.. dun ask mi wat it is... askin mi almightiness.. haha.. mad.. hmm too bored.. n mi brain is soooo dead.. argh!

Monday, December 13, 2004
results results!

yeah.. cum update again.. short entry.. got mi results.. haha.. din do exceptionally well.. but i manage to pass all!!! yeah!!! all u noe!! hahaha well guess miracle do happen... expect chem to fail but i manage a jus pass.. not bad... haha.. well a little disappointed in mi phy.. tot mayb can get B lah.. since i sae it till like so ez.. but nope.. in the 1st place mi phy not so gd.. stil can pass not bad lah.. shd tink on the bright side.. its one of the best results i every get lor.. haha.. onli an A the rest r jus Bs, Cs n D lor.. n eff comm!! tink i realli anihow do.. haha dats y oso nv do well.. but hu cares.. im no need to go to dat borin lesson animore.. hahah suppose to b a short entry bcum so long liao.. hahha yeah.. update again.. mayb later.. off to ktv soon!

continued...
ehh as u all can c.. im too bored once again.. so update mi blog a 2nd time.. ha.. went to ktv wif dap n jieqi.. long time no c her man.. haha sumtimes it jus feel nice to meet up wif old frens.. cum to tink of it.. noe her so long liao.. we r sooo old.. n finalli pass her the present liao.. after like almost a mth after her bdae.. haha.. well she bz person.. wat to do.. haha..ktv was fun... the fun of unloadin everythin.. sing til no song to sing.. haha or rather cant tink of wat to sing lor.. hmm crap... well did sum review of mi results.. n cum to tink of it.. hardwork pays off.. finalli i realise wat it means to work for it.. n yeah.. the feelin wasnt dat bad.. haha.. but durin dat period sure is torturous lah.. endure n u will get thru it. haha.. n stil i can aim further!! hahahaha too bored man!!

Sunday, December 12, 2004
left alone..

yeah.. lonely mi updatin again.. home alone.. while u guys r out enjoyin at phil's hse.. hahaha not blamin u all lah.. jus statin the facts.. haha.. well.. back from movie again.. watch 2movies in 3daes.. not bad ar.. yeah.. a review of the movies i watch.. National Treasure.. wld ask u guys to go catch it.. its very well down actualli.. kept mi wonderin y nicholas cage so smart.. c the few words den noe wats the next clue.. amaze man.. haha.. yeah.. went to watch coz its a free tix.. seat 1st row... end of the show.. neck achin.. wat to do free movie mah.. yup.. go catch it.. next up.. Blade Trinity.. cant sae if its beta den the previous 2.. cos i nv watch it.. haha weird rite.. y will go watch rite.. yeah.. mi bf as usual lor... well.. wasnt dat bad.. jus normal action show.. whoever wan watch it.. watch it at ur own risk.. cos dunno to recommend or not.. haha.. basicalli not bad if u like those action movies lor...no much plot..

yeah saw a scene jus now.. in the lift.. well.. its crowded lah.. den pple keep goin in n out of the lift.. den at the particular level.. mani ppl went out n came in.. n this super INCONSIDERATE lady.. was standin at the button side.. dun wan to press the door open.. n mind u.. tis lift onli got 1 side of button.. so incosiderate lor... the door almost close onto a bunch of small kids walkin in.. thnx to the other who stop the door b4 it close.. wat the hell man.. i wasnt near the button at all.. otherwise i wld hav press it.. wonder how can pple jus stand there n not doin anithin.. the least u can do is PRESS THE BUTTON!!! how hard can it b.. tis comes tos how dat how incosiderate singaporeans r.. well not sayin every1 is like dat.. jus hate this side of pple... feel like givin dat damn lady a slap lor.. kids u noe!! nearly got crush by the lift door.. n she cldnt b bothered.. not even a single sry or wateva.. jus livin in her own world... well mayb abit exagerated.. but hey.. she is stil veli inconsiderate.. only makes singapore to bcum an UGLY SOCIETY.. hai.. jus a single act of pressin the button n i got so much to sae.. haha.. well guess im jus bored..

Friday, December 10, 2004
short update..

hahahahaha.. happy happy happy!! yeah!! noe mi econs results liao.. n i got A!! A u noe.. can u believe it.. i cant even believe it man!! i haven gotten an A in ages... since i got in JC i nv got an A b4!! haha.. happy man.. next wk all mi results will b out.. tink will b sad.. but at tis very moment.. im happy!!

-happy me!-

Thursday, December 09, 2004
finally shimizu!

yeah.. finally went to shimuzu.. the place liang mention.. the atmosphere was nice.. quite cosy actualli.. food was gd.. but alittle ex lah.. each person abt 30+bucks.. n not to mention im broke!! hahah but aaron was nice lah.. he treat all of us 10bucks lor.. he pass his bike.. dats great for him.. congrats man! well nth much oso... hmm harn left fo HK todae.. ger.. we will MISS YOU!! n may ur mum b blessed wif gd health... do take care.. n miss us wor... =)

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one moment im feelin fine.. but now.. i feel damn fucked up lor!! jus check mi timetable.. damn sucky.. argh.. change mi lect grp to A2!!! n no1 i noe is in A2!! damn sianz lor.. hav to go lect alone lah.. eat lunch alone lah.. fucked!! wat the hell lor.. cant they jus giv us back our old class ar.. wats wrong wif the stupid fucked up uni system.. damn sianz lor... feel like scoldin all the vulgarities man!!! argh.. HATE THE COURSE!!! HATE THE SCHOOL!! HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE!!!!!! argh.. hope can change timetable.. but not much hope lah.. mayb go find the highest buildin n jump down will b beta off... FUCKED!!!!

Wednesday, December 08, 2004
comp spoil again..

stupid monitor spoil!!! damn it.. lousy man.. stupid acer.. LCD monitor ley.. stil can spoil.. hahaha.. mayb we r heavy user lah... use too much.. den LCD oso can bcum spoil... but oso... acer comp no gd... mi comp less den 1yr ley.. tink spoil 3times liao.. c how lousy it is.. yeah.. well.. nth much oso.. yest meet up wif the bowlers again.. haha.. they r mi only entertainment man.. went xmas shoppin.. hahha guess we all bought quite alot of things lor... now im quite broke.. n its only the 8th!! n im left wif only 40bucks!!1 any1 kind ennuff to b mi sponser?? haha.. wat to do.. hols den keep goin out.. no earn money mah... tis is sooo bad!! guess i will bi guan xiu nian liao.. ie not goin out liao!! but at hm oso sianz... hai.. at least now stil ok lah.. got mi bro.. his block leave.. which oso means.. i cant use the comp much liao.. but its ok lah.. only for a wk.. enuff of mi crap liao.. back to rottin... later meetin up wif the bowlers AGAIN!! hahahhahaa

Monday, December 06, 2004
vcd...

jus finish watchin another vcd.. veli nice too.. quill.. haha.. c the puppy in there... soooo cute!! i wan 1 too... too bad.. i no more dog liao.. c the show tink of mi dog... miss mi dog too.. n its sooooo cute... hope i hav 1 oso.. its like the story of a dog lor.. frm birth to death... so sweet.. hmmm well nth to do.. den at hm watch vcd.. ani1 wan to watch can borrow frm mi.. hahah goin to burn the show aniwae... veli nice... yeah.. rottin again.. hmm need to buy xmas gift.. ani1 free to go shoppin?? or ani ideas as in wat i can giv?? hahaha...

Friday, December 03, 2004
sentosa again...

back from sentosa again.... haha.. twice in a wk.. tink abit bo liao oso.. haha.. well its beta den rottin at hm.. at least go sentosa got mi frens to rot wif mi lor.. haha.. went wif a bigger bunch of pple toade.. but nonetheless stil bowlers.. hahaha.. well guess they r like mi only frens who i usualli hang out wif.. though we all r either in differeny uni.. or they r stil in army.. oso dunno y we all so gum... hmm not bad.. got 7pple todae.. dap harn aaron bene ben marc... haha kinda dumb oso lah.. go there play cards again lor.. n swim!!! tink too long no swim liao lor.. c the waves like abit phobia.. oso dunno y got tis feelin dat i will drown!!! haha but luckily i got gd frens lah... hahaha can 'save' mi lor.. but it was them hu drag mi to dat platform so far away... but actualli oso not veli far jus dat i velo lousy swimmer.. hahahahaa..... yeah.. im a 'burden' to them lah.. hahaha.... tink im crappin again.. sumtimes its gd to have such gd frens lor.. but sumtimes its jus dat u feel like every1 is soooo not ur frens... noe wat im tokin?? dun tink it makes sense oso.. hahhaa crap!

Wednesday, December 01, 2004
cried... over windstruck

hm alone again... gettin borin liao.. stonnin frm the moment i wake up til the moment i fall aslp.. how no life ehh.. well.. jus caught a show.. on vcd lah.. veli veli nice... sumtimes wonder y i love watchin movies... mayb cos i cld jus spend 2hrs jus sittin in the cinema.. durin dat 2hrs.. i am so engross in the movie... dat i tink im in it... yeah.. was rather nice watchin show alone.. can cry mi heart out.. as in y i cried... i oso dunno y... tears jus flow i guess... haha well mayb the show reali is dat well done...dat i can feel wat the actor n actress r feelin... guess im too sentimental at times... on the surface i dun seems to care much bout anithin... the 'heck care' attitude.. but well.. deep inside... im tinkin lots of stuffs... stuffs dat i can nv open up to others.. yeah.. the me hidin behind the mask...