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her self


June/Juney
1st June 1985
Graduate/Unemployed
Simple yet complicated/nice yet evil/ smart yet stupid/bad-tempered yet tolerant/cynical yet hopeful

A simple girl who yearns for a simple life, with simple wants and simple needs.

"I'm just an actor in life,
hiding behind all my roles"



her loves


- Things she loves in life -
her family/nicky/dogs/theOSBs/F5/ktv/ games/tv/novels/anime/TWdramas

- Things she couldnt live without -
air/water/food/hp/laptop/ipod/ family/friends/music


her notes





her reads


= aaron =
= bee =
= bene =
= ben =
= daph =
= fred =
= jack =
= jane =
= jasc =
= jess =
= liang =
= min =
= phil =
= shane =
= shu =
= vin =
= yun =

her memories


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Thursday, October 28, 2004
mug ar mug..

hai.. mornin had computin test.. tink its damn screwed up lor.. mi teacher tot we havin written test.. den prepared written test paper.. but we told her dat we wanted hand-on test.. so we all only studied for the hand-on 1 lah.. so end up she last min change n give up hand-on test.. n noe wat the hell.. she last min cum up wif a damn qn.. frm one of those past yrs paper.. n give it to us lor.. n dunno wat dat shit abt... bad.. tink goin to do badly liao.. one gd thing is dat.. even if we nv do or hand in anithin.. we stil got 60marks which is a B.. so guess dats wat i will gettin lor... hai.. computin sux!

been studyin day in day out.. onli a few days.. but gettin sick of studyin liao lor... stil need to endure another 2wks.. but its like study liao den next dae i will forget wat i had studied lor... arrr!!1 wats wrong wif mi man... hai... under stress ar... make mi miss mi dog.. jus tot of mi dog den i will tear.. too sentimental? or jus plain useless? well i guess is the latter.. yeah.. how i wish all of dat nv happen.. y does all the bad things happen to mi??? haiz....

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Sunday, October 24, 2004
muggin sunday?

sunday le.. so fast... study phy whole wk liao.... n yet i haven finish studyin mi damn phy... haiz.. 12chapts man.. dun tink can finish it liao lor.. tink all the teachers r mad lor.. 12chapts.. den onli 7mcqs qn!!! like wat the hell lor.. argh.. n its so damn hard.. i dun understand most of wat im readin.. n i dun hav time to read it again... arrghh.. physics sux sux sux!!!! n exams r like soooooo near.. n i haven study anithin.. dun tink i can finish most of mi revision.. probably goin to fail most subs liao.. wat to do wat to do!! sum1 teach mi ar.... stupid education system n screwed up timetable.. dun even hav study wk!!! wat the hell....

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8:07 PM


Saturday, October 23, 2004
friday.. another week closer to exams...

wah.. nan de c mi so late update blog.. hmmm came back hm not long ago.. went to catch a movie wif dap.. free tix.. ladder49.. quite a nice show.. sad ending n rather touchin.. wld recommend u guys to watch it... yeah.. got a free ride hm frm shane.. once again.. thnx! haha.. well oso not cum fetch mi 1.. but not bad i stil got a free ride hm.. n damn.. its rainin.. stupid..

as for the rest of the dae.. sch end veli earli todae... at 1130... went to eat den off to orchard to shop.. well though i din buy anithin... no money lor.. but stil quite farnie walkin ard.. need to relieve stress!! as for dinner... meet up wif harn(soooo long no c her), liang(sae mi hair not dat short.. but it is lah.. well at least it was one of the shortest in 19yrs of mi life), phil(who keep gettin suan by us bout his chesthair) n aaron(who sae reachin in 5mins n end up onli reached in 20mins!!) well.. quite fun lah.. long time no c them liao lor.. cos wenever they go out im not free 1 lor.. haha.. yeah dats abt it... wat a nice weather to fall aslp.. hmmmm....

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1:56 AM


Thursday, October 21, 2004
lonely days...

here again... nan de c mi thurs typin an entry.. hm earli...went for computin lesson onli.. den walk ard in sch.. gettin stuffs done.. otherwise i wld hav been hm ard 12+ n not now?? enjoyin mi fries.. which may probably b mi lunch n dinner.. y ley? well mi mum went hongkong.. den no pple buy dinner for mi liao... so no eat lor... rather sicked of studyion day in day out.. but doesnt hav a choice.. exams is creepin up on mi liao.. haiz... lonely lonely lonely.. no1 to tok to liao.. mum in hk.. dear in camp.. bro not cumin out tis wk either.. so tis whole wkend onli hav miself!! n the stupid comp... wif no1 online.. haiz... need to study liao...

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3:11 PM


Sunday, October 17, 2004
the day b4 dear birthdae..

so fast wkend over liao.. another wk nearer to exams.. n yet i haven get anithin done.. im jus too lz liao.. wkend was fun.. haha went to cut mi hair yesterdae.. abit sian of mi hair oso.. cut it quite short lah.. though its stil abit on the long side.. but now is cant tie dat type lor... hmm.. sth new.. long time nv cut such a shorter hair liao... but abit ma fan lor.. cos veli ez messy liao.. mi hair summore so frizzy type.. so now i look more n more like siao char bor liao.. haha.. but hu cares rite.. oso no pple see.. hmm yest went to celebrate dear birthdae wif his frens lor.. haha nv realli goout wif his frens b4.. but was quite fun lah.. crappin ard.. n not forgettin got pple giv mi suan.. haha.. catch a midnite movie... "white chicks" the show is damn crappy lor.. haha but farnie lah.. was veli tired at 1st.. after watchin it.. i feel so awake.. laugh til i wake up liao.. reach hm onli at ard 4+.. n dat is bad lor.. cos i got chem test tml!!! n i haven realli study anithin!! sianz.. tik will fail it lor.. chem is so sucky!! y am i takin chem?? ohh.. n tml is mi stupid pairwork presentation.. hope everything goes well smoothly... n den im free!! so sianz lor... pple.. wish mi luck...

-many more tests yet to come... n its nearin exams!!!!-

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Friday, October 15, 2004
lonely firiday..

friday is here again... another wk of life has gone by.. feel so tired of everythin... wen can i enjoy!! so no life lor.. go hm go hm... n go hm... onli can wait for wkend to cum.. den got dear pei mi.. otherwise.. tink i will b at hm again... yeah... no frens i guess?? well.. kinda lz to go out tooo.... broke n dunno wat to do... sianz... life is sooo damn borin... wen will ever be excitin?

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2:41 PM


Wednesday, October 13, 2004
wednesday.. wen if friday cumin?

wednesday weekly update liao.. haha.. came back not long ago lor.. had lunch wif colleen dap n shane lah.. haha.. so nice of him to treat all of us... thnx aniwae.. but doubt he gt to c this.. hmm.. borin wk as usual lor.. dear birthdae cumin liao.. bought a bag for him... but tink a little to big!! shd hav choose properly b4 buyin... kinda regret it.. later he dun like den waste mi money liao lor.. sianz... haven do mi presentation yet... so lz to get it done.. next wk goin to present liao.. n im the last pair to present lor.. sianz diao... tink it will end up as mi doin all the presentation lor... how unfair can it b.. but suan liao lor... i jus anihow do liao lor.. oso dunno wat im goin to present.. as for those alreadi presented.. so gd for them!!! how i wish i can present earli!! argh... sick of sch.. of everythin liao lor.. exams cumin den i like stil slack.. tink goin to da bao liao lor... i wan to enjoy... yet to enjoy lor... sian man!! dark circles gettin bigger n bigger liao lor.. not enuff slp alwiz... forever endless things for mi to do 1 lor... no time to even slp properly.. haiz... tink will fall sick soon again!

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Friday, October 08, 2004
blogger cocked up!1

fri nite.. n im online.. n yes stupid blogger is cocked up lor!!! dunno y i browser wun load lor.. those i alreadi posted new entries.. idiotic.. dat time oso... every1 blog to mi is not updated lor.. arrrghh!! mayb sth is wrong mi mi IE!! dunno lah.. suan liao.. kinda borin lor... jus had 2tests tis wk.. well.. computin hope can do well... at least i hope so lor.. econs ar.. alreadi noe the results liao... did sum stupid mistakes lor.. took econs b4.. so make everythin even more complicated wen it isnt complicated at all.. n the ans is like starin at mi... n yet i dun believe dat its dat ez lor.. so end up i choose the wrong ans.. -_- stupid mi lor..wat can i sae.. otherwise cld hav been able to score lor.. bz bz wks.. more quiz to cum.. no time to study!!! for mi exams.. n its like in less den a mth time!! bad... dunno how.. feel so lz.. yet i stil need to study.. sumtimes i jus wonder y am i still studyin.. wen i dun even like wat im doin??? juz tryin to get a degree?? but wats the use of havin a degree??? dunno.. mayb jus dun wan to disappoint pple hu believe i can do it?? well i dun tink i can do it aniwae.. jus feel so useless ba... yeah.. useless mi!!

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10:46 PM


Tuesday, October 05, 2004
sianz day...

yeah.. cum to update a short entry lah.. haha... welll... nth much.. jus dat im stil sick.. cant seems to gt well lor.. but at least its beta now liao... jus cough lor... n not dat bad animore.. majorly bz tis wk... 2quiz lor.. computin.. which im goin to die veli veli badly.. probably wun b able to do it.. n econs... reali reali hope to do well for tis quiz lor.. its like the only sub which i noe wat the teacher is teachin.... wish me luck ppl.. need to get back to studyin liao...
btw... fri whos free to go out wif mi?? haha been such a long time since i went shoppin.. i wan to shop!!!

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10:12 PM


Friday, October 01, 2004
better finalli...

another fridae wasted on updatin mi blog.. well.. realise dat i update mi blog almost every fridae lor.. cos im hm.. n rottin.. n nth beta to do.. yeah.. mi n mi borin life lor... guess no pple wan to noe the details lor... so i oso dunno y i bother updatin lor... well stil sick.. wats more.. weak mi.. at least its beta liao lor... well i realise sth.. dat sum frens r realli not worth makin lor.. its like they onli cum to u wen they need sth or ur help.. after u had done all dat for them.. they r like gone... u wun c them animore until they need ur help again... yeah.. got to noe mani of such frens in mi life.. y??? y cant i jus noe true frens... sum1 hu can truly understand mi??? is it realli dat hard to find sum1 hu u can reali 'click' wif??? well i can nv find such frens animore... mayb its wasnt them.. mayb its jus mi... mayb sth is wrong wif mi.. cos i dun show the true mi?? or cos i dun trust them so i dun show the true mi???/ haiz.. crappin again.. dunno wat i writin... jus make mi feel like SHIT!!!!

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11:04 PM