Friday, September 17, 2004
hols over soon!

almost to the end of the week liaol lor.. tis means dat hols is endin soon.. sianz.... barely gt anithin done lor.. din study much of chem.. n next mon got test.. argh.. tink goin to flunk it liao... jus finish doin mi report.. spent 2daes doin it.. not bad lah.. anihow do 1 oso lor.. hmm.. stil yet to do mi pairwork.. n abt 2more wks left.. well i a way is gd lah.. cos onli 2 more wks den no need pair wif him le.. hahaha but on the other hand.. onli 2 wks!!! n we haven gt anithin done... n yet i stil feel like slackin.. haiz.. tink shdnt be a prob ba.. onli 500words.. ez ba.. haha.. goin to slack liao.. feel head is heavy.. tink is from starin at all those words jus now.. sianz...

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dunno y i cum to blog again.. feel so sianz... dunno wat to do.. though there r tons of stuff waitin for mi to do... haiz... realise dat mi quite no life lor.. no frens to go out wif.. no1 to chill wif.. no1 to crap wif.... as if im livin in this world alone... cum to tink of it.. i realli doesnt hav much frens... all those ard mi is jus like normal frens.. not close or wat... dunno hu to go to wen im havin troubles.. mayb dats y i choose not to tell ani1 n keep it inside mi ba... dun feel dat i can trust ani1 except for mi.. i oso dunno y.. n how cum i will becum like dat... i jus miss those old times.. the old mi.. but hu is the old mi? i dunno... the old mi was lost mani yrs ago.. even now i dun recognise tis mi.. haiz.. oso dunno wat i tokin... mayb im jus tinkin too much.. but i wasnt realli happy all tis while... i miss mi dog.. where is mi dog???? haiz....

In life, everyone is just another actor. Acting those roles that wasnt them, doin things that is expected of them and not showing the real them which is hiding in there. They will only be true to themselves behind closed doors, where there is only them and no others. Why is this so? Is this world too scary for them to show the true them? Or is it that they are just too afraid to show the real them?