Wednesday, September 29, 2004
stil sick...

one wk liao.. n im stil sick!!! tink mi immune system veli lousy lor... sick once den veli long den will recover... haiz... now eyes dunno y oso veli pain... goin blind soon liao.. haha... well mayb blind oso not bad lah.. at least i dun need to c this stupid world lor.. livin in mi own world of darkness... hmmm...
mi bro enlistin todae... time to serve the nation... den now hse like veli quiet liao.. 1 less person tot tok to mi... kinda lonely... no1 can crap wif mi liao lor... haiz... no dog oso.. sad...

Friday, September 24, 2004
1st wk of sch over!!

friday.. n wat am i doin at hm??? yeah no life lor.. wat to do... den finalli mi sickness cum liao lor.. got flu n sore throat..argh... n voice change liao... now got "sexy" voice... hahahahha so ani1 wan to hear call mi n u can hear it liao... well.. had lunch wif mi bro... he treat swenson's.. not bad ar.. he goin NS soon liao.. so enjoy now lor.. haha... hmm dunno will miss mi bro or not.. haha mayb will lah.. cos no1 to crap wif mi liao... sianz.. stil need to do mi pairwork.. n not much time left... yet we got nth done yet... feel so sianz... hav to do it.. oso dunno wat to write lor.. waste time onli.. haiz.. beta get mi ass to doin it.. n yeah... mi dear todae POP liao... but oso nth much lah.. jus dat get to c him later... hee

Tuesday, September 21, 2004
sch start le... bz bz bz!

sianz... another term of sch start liao... haven rest enuff ley... n so mani things yet to be done!! time not enuff ley.. i need more den 24hrs!!! haiz... feel abit sick now.. dunno y.. feel weak... but i cant fall sick now!!!! stil got mani things to do lor... haiz.... sianz man... give mi more time ar!!! haiz...

Friday, September 17, 2004
hols over soon!

almost to the end of the week liaol lor.. tis means dat hols is endin soon.. sianz.... barely gt anithin done lor.. din study much of chem.. n next mon got test.. argh.. tink goin to flunk it liao... jus finish doin mi report.. spent 2daes doin it.. not bad lah.. anihow do 1 oso lor.. hmm.. stil yet to do mi pairwork.. n abt 2more wks left.. well i a way is gd lah.. cos onli 2 more wks den no need pair wif him le.. hahaha but on the other hand.. onli 2 wks!!! n we haven gt anithin done... n yet i stil feel like slackin.. haiz.. tink shdnt be a prob ba.. onli 500words.. ez ba.. haha.. goin to slack liao.. feel head is heavy.. tink is from starin at all those words jus now.. sianz...

continued...
dunno y i cum to blog again.. feel so sianz... dunno wat to do.. though there r tons of stuff waitin for mi to do... haiz... realise dat mi quite no life lor.. no frens to go out wif.. no1 to chill wif.. no1 to crap wif.... as if im livin in this world alone... cum to tink of it.. i realli doesnt hav much frens... all those ard mi is jus like normal frens.. not close or wat... dunno hu to go to wen im havin troubles.. mayb dats y i choose not to tell ani1 n keep it inside mi ba... dun feel dat i can trust ani1 except for mi.. i oso dunno y.. n how cum i will becum like dat... i jus miss those old times.. the old mi.. but hu is the old mi? i dunno... the old mi was lost mani yrs ago.. even now i dun recognise tis mi.. haiz.. oso dunno wat i tokin... mayb im jus tinkin too much.. but i wasnt realli happy all tis while... i miss mi dog.. where is mi dog???? haiz....

In life, everyone is just another actor. Acting those roles that wasnt them, doin things that is expected of them and not showing the real them which is hiding in there. They will only be true to themselves behind closed doors, where there is only them and no others. Why is this so? Is this world too scary for them to show the true them? Or is it that they are just too afraid to show the real them?

Monday, September 13, 2004
studyin sux!!

sianz... onli sort of 1st dae of hols.. den i feel so stress liao lor... tinkin of the mountains of work to be done.. stupid lab report.. damn pairwork... n the endless amt of studyin n catchin up to do.. not forgetin all mi tuts.. arrgh!!!!! i cant even rest.. soooo stress.. n i dun feel like doin anithing about it lor.. realli no mood to go do all those stuffs... yet i have to force miself to go do it lor.... sianz...
been slackin for the past 3daes... dun realli feel like doni anithin.. other slackin n more slackin.... went for ntu funbowl todae... was ok i gues.. did quite badly for the 1st 2 games or so... even wif the handicap.. jus pass 100.... -_- well after dat manage to do much beta.. like so extreme like dat.. tink ppl bowlin wif mi oso tink i siao 1 lah... where got such big diff.. like 100pins ley... haha oso tink i mad... late noon went to facial wif dap.. free 1.. but need to pay sum money oso lah... service wasnt dat bad.. the person quite frenly lah.. noe we cum cos of the free thingy.. but stil quite nice to us lor... 1st experience... haha cool man... but need to pay lah... haha....
now back to mi stressin life liao.. sian.... study study study!!! I HATE TO STUDY!!!!

Sunday, September 12, 2004
body achin...

everywhere on mi body is achin... tink i too long no bowl liao ley... onli bowl abit dunno y everywhere achin... tink nv stretch well.. n yest slp too late... went ktv again.. been there almost every wk... like a rountine... tink go there to let go of all mi stress... n loneliness ba... haiz... got tis weird feelin inside mi... cant explain it... but it do makes mi wan to cry.. n i dunno y....

things happen for a reason... dun go lookin for the reason... jus tink of the solution to it.. i believe u can do it.. n dun wish to c pple ard mi to b sad... or i will feel sad too.. especialli pple real close to mi ba... hope u can feel beta.. well i will b there if u need mi... mayb u wun tell mi wat u r tinkin.. but i noe how u feel... believe in ur heart.. goes wif it... i the ans will b there.. mayb it wasnt dat ez to get there... believe it... it will b there....

Thursday, September 09, 2004
sianz...

sian ar... nth to do den cum update... oso nth much to update liao.. everyday life is so rountine lor.. do the same things... hols cumin in 1 dae time.. but stil sianz... tink of the amt of work dat i need to do.. stil need to do mi lab report... damn sianz lor.. oso dunno wat to write in there.. dunno do report for wat.. waste time onli lor... den need to study n study n study... stil need to do mi pairwork.. sooo frustratin ley.. haiz... cant enjoy man... cant wait for the bbq to cum den i can relax lor.. sianz no dinner to eat.. hungry... haiz... goin to starve miself liao...

Tuesday, September 07, 2004
tired...

back frm sch.. veli tired rite now.. tink not enuff slp.. everydae oso not enuff slp.. nvm.. next wk hols liao.. den gotta catch up on all mi slp.. haha... hmm mi dear go fieldcamp liao... den cant gt to c him til next wk.. so sianz.. den tis wkend goin to rot at hm liao... veli now life lor.. so ani1 wanna go out jus jio mi k.. haha but doubt ani1 wan to go out aniwae... manage ti finish most of mi tuts for tis wk durin dat 5hrs break.. haha den tis wk can slack abit lor.. but stil need to read up mi notes.. all pilin up liao lor... sianz.... waitin for the wkend to cum...

Friday, September 03, 2004
borin borin borin..~

fri is here again... seems like the days r passin faster nn faster.. but den wif the time i spent in sch feels sooo long.. sch is borin borin borin... go lect lah.. go tut lah... sianz man.. den all those CAs are cumin liao... stress man.. its like i haven realli learnt anithin den havin test soon... got a feelin dat i wil flunk most of mi modules tis yr lor... sianz man.. life is borin... n yeah who sae uni life is fun... wasnt lor... pple in mi class make mi feels superficial.. dun like sum of them.. but hav to act liao veli gd to them... dun like tis mi... aniwae oso onli tut den c them lah.. y cant life jus b the same as back in jc.. or sec sch.. or even pri sch... much more simpler.. den now.. so complicated.. sianz...