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her self


June/Juney
1st June 1985
Graduate/Unemployed
Simple yet complicated/nice yet evil/ smart yet stupid/bad-tempered yet tolerant/cynical yet hopeful

A simple girl who yearns for a simple life, with simple wants and simple needs.

"I'm just an actor in life,
hiding behind all my roles"

her loves


- Things she loves in life -
her family/nicky/dogs/theOSBs/F5/ktv/ games/tv/novels/anime/TWdramas

- Things she couldnt live without -
air/water/food/hp/laptop/ipod/ family/friends/music


her notes





her reads


= aaron =
= bee =
= bene =
= ben =
= daph =
= fred =
= jack =
= jane =
= jasc =
= jess =
= liang =
= min =
= phil =
= shane =
= shu =
= vin =
= yun =

her memories


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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

so fast 1 wk has past le... mi dog has been gone for a wk.. n stil tink of him n miss him.. tot is his tou qi.. as pple believe dat the spirit of the person will cum back on the 7th day after his death.. i wonder does dat apply to dogs??? if so den mayb gt to c mi dog ba... haiz.. c his fotos den brings tears to mi eyes.. stil sad...
haiz... worried bout mani things ... mi results which can gt mi nowhere.. n got the yu gan dat mi wun b able to gt in uni.. n wat shd i do??? i realli dunno... go apply poly?? i dunno... if onli i chose mi path more carefully... bad start for tis yr.. nth seems to go smoothly... feel like such a failure... had too much regrets le... wat to do... haiz.. too late le ba... nth i can do le....
n suddenly got tis feelin.. tis feelin of loneliness inside... like im all alone.. w/o ani frens... family.. jus mi alone... felt im driftin away... n hav no1 i can count on animore.. so sad... got xin shi wan to sae it out.. but i dunno hu to turn too... felt like no1 will understand how i feel.. jus realise mi nv realli had a fren whom i can tell everythin to dat person... so all these yrs.. its jus mi... close frens oso dunno how i feel or wat am i tinkin... alwiz wearin tis mask on mi... onlii able to take it off wen i am at hm... alwiz cryin late in the nite.. n hu noe.. cry miself to slp so mani times.. n hu noes... haiz... tink im jus a failure ba.. in everything.... yeah failure dats wat i am...

-feelingless??-

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