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her self


June/Juney
1st June 1985
Graduate/Unemployed
Simple yet complicated/nice yet evil/ smart yet stupid/bad-tempered yet tolerant/cynical yet hopeful

A simple girl who yearns for a simple life, with simple wants and simple needs.

"I'm just an actor in life,
hiding behind all my roles"

her loves


- Things she loves in life -
her family/nicky/dogs/theOSBs/F5/ktv/ games/tv/novels/anime/TWdramas

- Things she couldnt live without -
air/water/food/hp/laptop/ipod/ family/friends/music


her notes





her reads


= aaron =
= bee =
= bene =
= ben =
= daph =
= fred =
= jack =
= jane =
= jasc =
= jess =
= liang =
= min =
= phil =
= shane =
= shu =
= vin =
= yun =

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Friday, April 23, 2004

back again... yeah can c dat mani pple got their uni letters le... dun tink i will gt mine.. started to gt real worry liao.. as to wat am i goin to do if realli REALLI cant gt in uni... n REALLI...... i dun hav ani back up plans.. NONE at all... haiz... mi hope is gone.. i cant hope animore.. neither can prayin helps.. life is jus so unfair ba... bout how pple work so hard.. but nv gt wat they deserve... as for those hu nv hav to do anithin.. they got everythin... mayb dats y they no need to do anithin ba... well i sure do belong to those dat work but nv gt wat i deserve... though i admit i may not hav work hard enuff.. but i did try... but nah... im stil back to where i started... its jus like runnin on a road without an end... no destination to do to.. dats mi life...
guess im startin to self-pity miself liao.. y do bad things alwiz happen to mi?? or is it dat i onli tend to look at the dark side of everythin??? but where is the bright side??? i cant c it... ani1 care to guide mi??? lost all the confidence i used to hav.... now i dun even feel like miself animore... not sure of wat to do... or wat am i doin.. or wat i hav to do... lost all mi morales too... jus livin day by day.. sumtimes realli do wish dat mi jus slp i wun wake up.. or by the time i do wake up.. everythin is back to normal.. but wat is normal?? i dunno either...
hai too mani questions.. but i dun hav ani ans... mayb sum questions is beta off w/o ani ans ba....
so tired of miself le.. onli keep complainin... n tinkin n tinkin bout soo mani things on mi mind... sumtimes i do HATE miself... y am i like tis???

-hating miself-

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