Wednesday, October 01, 2003

hey.. back to post an entry.. wanted to take a nap.. but for some reason i just cant fall asleep.. feel that my heart beats very fast.. then makes me feel very uncomfortable.. well finnaly got back mi econs paper3.. did so much better then i expected.. gotten an overall of C.. nv quite expected that.. thought at most a D im satisfied.. then get a C.. its like 1st time i actually can do well.. so this is what they meant by you reap what you sow.. cos during those breaks i keep studying econs.. so guess that why i did well..

hmm.. but something sort of happen that makes me think about.. well mrs wong sort of make a mistake and said that i got thw highest in class.. i dont really care if i got last of 1st as long as i think that i did well.. so i justnv bother about the bein highest in class.. then there was this ger (ask me some other time) in my class give me those type of look like i cant have done so well.. then she ask mi how much i get for overall.. told her i got 61 then she give me the look that she dont believe me.. after that we have to go check with mrs wong to see if our overall is calculated correctly.. then she go and see the whole class result.. then she found out that actually it wasnt me that was the highest.. so she told mrs wong that another guy was actually the highest.. then she came back and tell me that i wasnt the highest and some other guy is.. i was thinkin.. why does she has to tell me.. i couldnt care less about being 1st or last.. then got this weird feeling that struck me.. just couldnt explain what is that feeling.. but it wasnt a gd feeling.. i wasnt like close to that ger.. so why is she comparing results with me??? though i know i dont really struck anyone as being clever.. but i try hard and this is what i got.. so dont belittle me just cos i dont usually did better then you... feel sort of irritated by her attitude.. she also gotten a C but a low C.. this she just couldnt that i can do better then her.. though i still dont believe that i actually did well too.. but just dont like the feelin of people looking down on me.. so now im even motivated to do better...

well.. todae miss chia also said something which motivated me.. she has those faith in us that we jc2 can do well even though our prelims results is horrendous.. n even when all the teachers are sayin how lousy we are.. she just keep a deaf ear to what they say.. n choose to believe that we can do it... she is such a wonderful DP....